Is there anyone you can talk to? A friend, family member, theripist? Writing in a journal really really helped me and made me feel better, as cliche as it sounds. Even just angry scribbles helped. It sounds like you need an alternative to cutting, and relearn how to deal with your emotions, be able to let yourself cry. I know how you feel, there.
Have you considered snapping an elastic and drawing red ink on your skin? It's a step away from actually cutting, which is a very good thing. Or squeezing ice, hurts but doesn't hurt you. My favorite is/was the 15 minute game, gives me a chance to cool down from whatever just made me want to cut, in 15 minutes I had a choice, let myself, or see if I could go another 15.
PM me if you need/want to chat, hun.
I hope you feel better!
coley. x x x
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