Rewarding yourself when things are going well
I havent posted in some time..
I had a hard time last,issues at work,alot of stress in the space of a week.
12 hour shift, shooting to a and e as my friends mum was on deaths door, walking back and having a phone call from a friend who was having a meltdown. Calmed her down then went to do... 12 horses as her mum was in hospital. This was on the weds.
By the friday i cracked was in a and e myself to see the mh team. Found out on the sunday my dad lost his job. The weds morning i awoke to find my stunning liv ( too shy) passed away and i only spoke to her the way before...
Then fast forward to nov last year i crashed and burned. Went to a and e as a place of safety. Couldnt tell them i didnt want to be admitted but didnt feel safe to go home
Back 7 hours later having oded. Cmht left me 6 weeks before and didnt take me back.
Due to covid 19 and other things. The only support i have had since nov is the crisis team number i last spoke to them in decemeber. We are now in may and its strange. Almost like i havent stayed this well in a while its almost like i have to crash as thats what i am used too. The nurse assessing me (big manager) said 'Youre fine for a while then go into crisis then fine for a while then back in crisis
Given the above. And how I am doing well. I wanted to Edward myself , give myself a treat but i have no idea what to do!!!
Last edited by xlaurenx : 08-05-2020 at 05:15 PM.
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