Feel like throwing it all away
I have a sore on my arm which I half pick and half take care of. I pick it because I have a bad habit and sometimes I want to see blood (which is one of the reasons I have cut in the past). I also rather enjoy taking care of my sore. It's probably the only time I practice self care.
But I am tempted to cut again. I really find the sore triggering. I know there's nothing I can do until the sore heals. I know that I will cut time and time again if I start again. I have worked bloody hard to get to 5 years free. But I am tempted to throw it away.
I can't do my usual distraction because I am not at home and everything is there. Normally I would take prn but I have none.
Idk what I want from this other than to get it off my chest.
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