I've OD'd on my seizure meds too, nothing major and won't need hospital but I am struggling to stay awake and can't stop shaking.
I think crisis team are coming tonight but I'm not sure.
They have found a bed at the same place as before but a different ward.
I'm so scared.
I'm so unstable on my feet today, I don't think I can even manage the stairs to even leave here.
I don't know what time I'm going, apparently crisis team will call me to arrange a time to come and get me.
So far it's really noisy and quite terrifying.
I've also been threatened with being tube fed but it's so hard to eat in the dining area in front of everyone.
I really need a cigarette but I haven't been given leave except to go to my neurology appointment and the burns unit tomorrow and Friday with an escort. It's so noisy tonight, all the women seem to be kicking off and earlier one of them kept setting the alarms off, including the fire alarm which made me leap out of my skin every time.
I'm so tired and anxious.
I'm sorry to hear the hospital environment is difficult for you. Are there any places on the ward where it's quieter, away from other people? I know that doors don't block all sound and of course they won't block the fire alarm noise. Do you have music you can listen to with earphones? Would it be possible for you to eat somewhere privately? I hope you can get some sleep.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Hey guys, just wanted to update you.
Things are actually going well, still really struggling with food but I'm making small steps and drinking the build up drinks. They are checking my physical health every day and it's seems to be improving.
Still really struggling with anxiety and being in communual areas but as I got leave today (escorted) I chatted to some of the patients who have been really nice.
The doctors are nice, best I have encountered! They have upped my medication and are thinking of ECT if there is no progress. They have also said about having some one to one psychotherapy whilst here and are thinking of inviting my care coordinator up here for a few visits to get to know her more before I eventually go home.
So although slow, there is some progress being made and I feel like I may now get the support I need to start rebuilding my life. It's going to be hard but I'm feeling a little more positive.
Thank you for all of your support over the last few weeks. You have been amazing. Xxx
Thank you guys. Things are still going ok. I'm drinking the supplement drinks and bought some fruit to start eating again today. Baby steps but I'm trying and I hope this admission will be a positive one to help me recover. So far, the staff and patients have all been great.
Thank you to all of you for your continuing support! Will update again when I can, hope you are all well, stay safe xx
Oh, I'm so glad to know you're okay! It's great that you're buying fruit and eating again. It seems like you're doing such an amazing job in recovery, you should be proud of yourself. It's great to know that staff are good to you. I've been thinking of you and I'm so glad you're feeling a little better! Will continue wishing you the best and hoping for an update. Please, take care!
Hey guys, another update:
I was taken off of my section last Monday and am staying as an informal patient. The consultant was going to discharge me but I'm not ready and the nursing staff have supported me by agreeing that I should stay until the community team put a decent support plan in place. I have also asked to be referred to the cassel as I think that would be beneficial to me and I have asked if ECT would still be an option in the interim. I really am recovery motivated now and the nursing staff here are bloody awesome.
So pleased to hear that. Keep up the positive attitude and you can fight this. I'm glad you're getting the support you need and I hope it continues when you are discharged from hospital.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
After feeling so positive. A patient on the ward committed suicide tonight.
I don't know how to feel when her body is still in her room.
I feel broken.
And I feel guilty about keep asking for PRN and painkillers when there is so much going on tonight.
I'm so sorry. I was in the same situation last time I was on the ward and it is awful. Please don't feel guilty. It's OK to need those things. Thinking of you. Keep talking here if it's helping.
Our defeats are softened and our victories are sweetened because we did it together. - Toby Ziegler.
