Triggering (SI) - This documentaries about cutting (or eve ED's)

Circle Of Fire · 22-09-2007, 12:14 PM

You know those documentaries that come every few years or so about how someone of a few someoens have cutting and it tells you how they started and thier stories ect.. hell you might have even seen them on the net..

Well i watched one about two years ago with a 19 year old girl who had been cutitgn since she as 15...ect and i was thinkign i'm never going to be like that, this is just a temporary thing.

Then you think back to it about a year later and think - i hope i dont end up like her, if things keep going this way then i might.
Then after a few years you realise you have just ended up like the poepl on TV thta you though you would never be like...

Does anyone eles have these sort of experiences and how do you feel abotu them?

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Tanya B · 22-09-2007, 07:04 PM

Ohh yeah, I know what you mean. I remember starting and seeing a documentary and reading articles about these people who'd been self-harming for years, and I was convinced my SI would be a minor thing that I'd "get over" in a few months at the most. But hey, here I am :P

gizabun · 22-09-2007, 09:54 PM

hmm, when i started i never ever thought that id still be doing it when i was 18.. i was convinced that i could almost "flick a switch" and stop.. hasn't quite happened like that though!

crazykat · 23-09-2007, 03:13 PM

I remember the first time I heard of SH, I thought it will never be that bad, I'll just scratch a few times. Also thought that it would just be a temporary thing and when I wanted to stop, I could easily and not have urges or anything. I have found its not as easy as that.

ShyBambi · 23-09-2007, 04:53 PM

yeah i'm like that...when i first heard of SH i was like 'omg thats crazy...' than i tried it and realised how it made people feel but still i told myself i'd never do it again...and i'm kinda shamed to say that 9 years on i'm still doing it :( and i think its getting worse again...

Voldemort · 24-09-2007, 04:10 AM

Yep, I completely sympathise with y'all.

I didn't spare a thought for the future when I started. It didn't cross my mind that I might spiral and continue doing it into adulthood, but here I am, 5 years later, still doing it. Bah. I didn't consider the whole being scarred for life thing when I started either. Stupid meeee.

Artyom · 24-09-2007, 09:09 AM

i started off with it just being small stuff, nothing real serious. didnt really think i'd actually take it this far.
and over 4 years later, ive realized how bad it has gotten and to the extent ive taken it. just makes me realize how much its gotten a hold of me.
i can never see my self ever not self harming again.

sherlock holmes · 24-09-2007, 10:24 AM

I never thought about how long I'd be doing it. I think part of me knew when I started that I'd be doing it for a long time.

Hannah_x · 24-09-2007, 07:05 PM

I remember years ago reading an article about SI, before I started, and thinking "Jesus, I would never do that."
I also remember soon after I started cutting (infrequently, though) seeing a woman in the street with scars all up her arm and thinking to myself that I would never allow it to get that bad for me.
So yeah, I know what you mean !
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gottahavsweet · 25-09-2007, 01:25 AM

When I started... I didnt know anything about it. I became more aware of it when i went to the hospital... I never thought I would still be dealing with cutting when i turned 22... I hate it so much