How to support boyfriend who's depressed because of me?
Basically my lovely man spends a LOT, the majority in fact, of time with me due in part to my severe depression so he doesn't want to leave me as suicide/SI risk. Also even if I promise to not hurt myself he doesn't like to leave me alone feeling rubbish.
He also has signs of PTSD (was in the forces) from last year, which come and go but he is waiting to do a supportive course thingy run by veterans.
Anyway he gets very annoyed with me sometimes but usually apologises, I don't know what to do to make it better for him, I know and he has told me he gets down because I am.
When he tried to get the crisis team to help me, and explained how it was getting him down/how much help he gave me, they told him to leave me!
(haha he actually replied by asking them what relationship training/qualifications they had, when they said 'none' he pointed out they weren't then qualified to advise on relationship matters!)
Anyway I'm scared if they do take in how much he's struggling, they'll blame me and I already feel rubbish for making him feel bad. Either way, they won't be much more helpful than now as I'm clearly on some sort of crisis team/ CMHT blacklist (although finally getting referred for therapy - just no other support/CPN's etc).
I feel kinda trapped cos obviously this makes me feel he'd be better without me, but I also know I can't manage without him/he wouldn't leave anyway so that it makes me more suicidal... like it'd be better if I wasn't here.
But he also says he couldn't carry on if I did that, so I'm trying to get better against all the odds, but then it's upsetting him....
Any advice is very welcome, thank you xx
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