Triggering (SI) - why do i have to be this way???

[butterflymom]

why do i have to be so pathetic and needy?

when i really need to reach out, when i really need to talk about how i'm feeling and how bad i want to hurt myself i just can't do it. i call a friend and they sound so happy and they have lives, they're busy and i just can't blurt out 'i feel like crap today, i need help'...like i want to. and these are friends who know i struggle with SI...i desperately want and need them to ask me if i'm okay. but they don't. so i get off the pone and cry. is it wrong to just want them to ask me?

sorry for venting, i just hate feeling this way, hate that i can't be stronger. :(

[Rockyb_123]

I feel likethis sometimes. Do they know about your issues? Could you talk to any of them perhaps?
x

[NeverBetter]

no it isnt wrong for u to ask for that we all need someone to ask if were ok now and again just not all the time i know what u mean it shows people care when they ask
i also agree with rockyb 123
and i feel like that too as well
*hugs*