Luckily I'm not on a lot of medication but I can understand why you'd be sick of taking meds. The alternative is likely to be worse though, although of course I'm sure you could eventually come off some things. What makes it a burden for you to be taking meds?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I hate the feeling that I'm reliant on these pills for any sort of stability
Because without them bad things happen
I'm also sick of the weight issue
I was so much smaller when I was off the meds and I'm sick of being fat and struggling to lose the weight
I know one of my meds is really bad for that
But this med is the main one keeping me stable
Its an issue
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
That's true
I don't want to end up in hospital again just because I want to be slim
It's such a depressing thought that I'll probably be on all this medication for the rest of my life
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
It is difficult to feel reliant on meds but if they work then that is the main thing. We all have different needs and different bodies and brains that sometimes need a bit of medical help, and that's ok. I do understand how you feel though.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I think it's also interesting to think about the rest of your life and look at how many advances in medicine have been made just in the last 20-30 years. I'd imagine that options for meds and ways to be stable will increase and become different over the rest of your life as well.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
Not heard from anyone yet
I did call the cmht and they said my CC is off sick and should be back today
Things are getting stressful
The thoughts of contamination aren't going away even though I'm taking my meds
Thanks for asking
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Maybe.
I have a psych appointment on Thursday so I'll bring it up then
I am scared they'll try to put me in hospital though
Even though I am eating, drinking and taking my meds still
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Maybe you're so worried about the thoughts that you're getting kind of fixated on them. That would be understandable. Please talk to your psych on Thursday and your CC if she gets back to you before then, you're doing all the right things and I'd hope that your team would work with you to get through this rather than forcing things on you.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Still nothing from my CC so I assume she's still off sick
I wiĺl try and talk to psych
It's hard though because it's a different psych every time. My cmht cant seem to hold on to one for long so it's all different locums.
Makes it hard to talk about things
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
