The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[DestroyMe]

ugh....I hate my brain...
does anyone else get really paranoid over the stupidest comments??? {like "omg why did he just say that, what does that mean???"}

yup i do

[beautifulpain]

same here! like i read waaaay to much into the comment. When really it was probably just a harmless comment that didn't mean anything...

[Kitkat :)]

Yeah I do. Actions as well, like whys she sitting over there and not here?

I try to ignore them though

[whirlpools]

beautifulpain, antipsychotics like Seroquel (Quetiapine) are often described on the leaflet as being prescribed for conditions like schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but can be used to stabilise moods in other conditions as well (though some antipsychotics are used off-licence for this, I think Quetiapine is licensed for use as a mood stabiliser). A lot of people with BPD take antipsychotics to make moods calmer and reduce any psychotic/pseudopsychotic symptoms that come with the illness, and the use of Quetiapine seems especially common in helping control the illness. Though I would imagine that it can be used for the same sort of thing in people without a formal diagnosis as well.

PerfectMess, I struggle with that too :( it's actually, for me, one of the most difficult parts of the illness, because it seems to be what stops me from forming a social network, or getting out of the house and taking part in activities. I'm starting a therapeutic group soon and I'm so nervous about speaking because I'm convinced that everyone'll think I'm a complete idiot! I think it's tied in with low self esteem for me. People have told me before that it's best to 'check things out' by asking the person you're feeling paranoid about, if they meant anything in particular by a comment or look. That can be difficult to do, though.

[whirlpools]

How is everyone doing today? *Sends positive vibes throughout thread*.

Got a letter this morning, inviting me to start the prep. group for the day TC in three weeks time. Eeek. That means, all going well, I'll start the programme proper in about 7 weeks.

In other news, I've been stable now for longer than I have been since this illness started, about ten years ago. It's only been about 5-6 weeks of stability, but I think a lot of people would agree that for BPD/emotional instability, that's a long time!

[x-dying-inside-x]

^ I'm glad your having a stable time babe!

I got a call yesterday asking me to sart uni in september instead of may 2012 :)

[whirlpools]

Brilliant news Daniella! Sorry to be behind, but what are you studying?

[frenchhorn]

Thats great news Daniella :)

Thats good news your having a stable period Laura (it is Laura right?)

I'm pretty dazed today after last night :(

[whirlpools]

Thanks Oliver (and yes, Laura is right!) What happened last night to leave you feeling dazed?

[frenchhorn]

I experienced hearing voices while at the GP waiting room that told me that everyone there was going to kill me and had a panic attack, my GP rang the A&E and got the mental health team to assess me and they gave me some diazapam to calm down and referred me to this safe team, which does 4 sessions to do with self harm.

how is everyone doing?

[~Grace~]

That must have been really scarey Oliver...im glad theyve arranged something for you n...hugs xxx

[frenchhorn]

thanks rowie *hugs* how are you doing?

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry that things are difficult for you, Oliver. I'm here if you need to talk.

[frenchhorn]

thanks Lindsey

[~Grace~]

Im really not very good at the moment. Feels like everything is just falling around me....but ill be ok. Thanks for asking Oliver...how are you today?

hugs to everyone xx

[one_step_closer]

Is there anything you want to talk about, Rowie?

[frenchhorn]

*hugs Rowie* here if you want to talk.

how are you Lindsey?

I'm in conflict with all the different emotions and feelings going around my head

[~Grace~]

Thats a horrible feeling Oliver..hope those feeling ease soon x

Thank you Lyndsay and Oliver for your offers of help...my daughter went to her head of year and asked to see a counsellor because she found out that I harmed...something ive tried to keep away from my children. We had a call from the school to let us now...it came as a huge shock. I feel as if i have failed her and wonder how long she has been harbouring this secret...it must have been awful for her....but yeah, thats whst is going on take care both of you xx

[frenchhorn]

thank you Rowie.

I'm sorry to hear that Rowie, you havn't failed her at all and in a way its good she is asking for help instead of locking everything inside of her *hugs*