I really really just want to give up on ever having hopes of recovering. I dont know if i want to stop or not, but if i dont stop, someone will find out that im not better like i said i was. Then ill be put in the hospital. I cant be put in the hospital, im a month and a half away from graduating school, if i miss even a week, i wont graduate on time. I also have my Schools prom in 3 weeks, and i was really excited about going because i let all the cuts on my arms and lower legs heal, so they were only scars. But last night i messed up my left arm bad and idk if they will look like scars in 3 weeks. Im already taking a huge risk by going to prom because most people dont know about my cutting. I know ill loose some people but, my true friends already know so i dont care what others think. I wasn't going to let my scars ruin my prom. but now its not scars, and idk what to do. Im just really lost in life right now, im stuck and dont know where to turn. Cutting is what is keeping me from going crazy, but its ruining my life and all my friendships. Help/Advise please???
hmm... could you possibly wear some long gloves for the prom? Find some nice ones that match you dress?
*hugs* I'm not sure I can give much advice right now... but what I do know is that to succeed in stopping you have to do it for yourself. Belief that you can get better is very important...
well done on not cutting for long enough for all your marks to fade/heal, that is quite an accomplishment, don't let this one slip-up ruin that.
you can still go to your prom, and enjoy it... don't let a few cuts or the potential opinions of other who don't really matter ruin that for you
its my whole left arm... from mid forearm to shoulder. mostly from elbow to shoulder. I didn't stop when i was letting the scars on my arm and legs heal, i just moved to my stomach ant thighs. I know i have to stop for myself, i just hate to watch the people who love me, hurt so bad because im hurting. thanx for the reply
if you dont know whether you actually stop or not i'd say chances are that you dont want to stop yet and you're not ready too. you can obly get better for yourself hun so if are struggling right now you need to go and get some professional help to get through this.
as for your prom hun if worst comes to worst you could wear stockings to cover your legs and maybe a shawl or something or long gloves for your arms.dont let cuts and scars ruin having a wonderful time at your prom.
thanx everyone for your replies, i got out of my house for the first night in 2 weeks and i had alot of fun and i feel alot better. I am seing a therapist, my GP and my school councilor. so plenty of professionals know. my mom knows too, she just chooses to pretend like she doesn't know about it.
Idk why my mood does this. Ill feel like im worthless and dont want to be here, for like 3 days at a time than i go for a week being really happy. Im so happy today and nothing in my life has changed. I really have no idea whats going on mith my moods and why they change so dramatically. My doctors are going to ask me if my new medication is making me feel more depressed, but idk. my moods are always like this and i dont think its my meds
yeah that does sound like manic depression my step dad has it and its best if you see a doctor about it they can tell you all about it and help you so you feel better. X
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