Tig - so right. We need to band together to support each other, especially those of us who don't have much support face-to-face. Things are rough, but I know everyone here can get through this, and if anyone wants to PM me, please please do. I'm always here to talk, even if I can't offer as much as I'd like.
Everyone take care *massive safe hugs*
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Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Really struggling right now - flashbacks are hitting me so hard. The sad thing is, there were so many like experiences that I don't even know which flashback is which. I'm terrified, all the time, and I feel so alone.
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Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
anyone feel so scared when they are alone. find that the flashbacks/voices/edginess is so much more intense when alone. i hate it, i get so scared when alone. but, at the same time, dont want to be around people.
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*Hugs Saphire* I can relate to that a lot. It is hard to keep a sense of the world when that is happening to you. We are here for you lovely <3
*Hugs Wendy* I live on my own so I guess it is different because I don't really know most the time what it's like to be with others but if I do go and stay away with people, it seems less intense.
*hugs Lottie* thanks sweetheart. It's just so hard to remember when I'm avoiding people who could find out how f*cked I am at the moment. I just want this to stop. I don't want to end up doing something stupid.
*hugs Wendy* I know the not wanting to be around people - I'm getting that a lot right now. When flashbacks are making you feel unsafe it's hard to remember that not everyone is a danger.
Ask me mistakes I have made
Ask me whether what I have done is my life
Others have come, in their slow way -
And some have come to help, or to hurt -
Ask me what difference
Their strongest love or hate has made.
Question: does anyone get 'flashbacks' of things that haven't happened but variations of what did happen? If that makes sense.
Yes, this happens to me often. I flashback to variations of things that have happened--sometimes it's the event but the people there are not the same people, or it's the right person/people but it's happening at different times or places. I find it distressing because it makes me doubt myself and I wonder why my brain mixes things up like this. My old therapist suggested it was my mind trying to process what happened to me in different ways.
Yes, this happens to me often. I flashback to variations of things that have happened--sometimes it's the event but the people there are not the same people, or it's the right person/people but it's happening at different times or places. I find it distressing because it makes me doubt myself and I wonder why my brain mixes things up like this. My old therapist suggested it was my mind trying to process what happened to me in different ways.
Yes, this apparently isn't unusual. I have flashbacks in which the essential emotions (fear, horror, helpelessness, etc.) are the same, but the actual event never happened.
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hi all, ive just found this thread. my life is ruined by this the slightest smell noise or place , send me into overload flashbacks where i am actually reliving the horrors , im so trapped lost and confused , ive been a heroin and crack user for 20 years and have always been using drugs to avoid this issue , now im clean of smack and crack (5years) but am now hiding behind reacreational drugs ,, i know it sounds sad but im set in my ways .the only time i get a break from my brain (i could rip my own out at times its just relentless .. if the drugs dont kill me first not bieng able to deal with this will >< thanx for the posts at least i know im not alone >well till i stop typing > i jus want some peace in my head it feels like its been taken over by sheer evil . ok im gonna shut up now : + (((((
please dont give me the "its the drugs" i take drugs for a rrason not becouase i choose to .
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Welcome to the thread. I'm sorry things are hard for you, and I'm not going to tell you "it's the drugs" because nobody has a right to judge you. As you said, and I think a lot of people will be able to relate, you do it because right now it is the only way you can survive. Of course I'm not saying it's healthy but I do understand that sometimes we do resort to things that aren't healthy to help us manage as best we can.
PTSD is so damn scary with the feeling lost, trapped and confused. I can empathise a lot, and it's distressing when the smallest things send us in to a spiral of flashbacks etc.
I'm sorry, I don't know what to say because I'm struggling a lot with this myself at the moment but I wanted you to know I'm here for you and not judging.
*curls up near katie*
last night was well rough :(
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“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
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I'm Bee, 20, and apparently I have "complex" PTSD, diagnosed ages ago. Flashbacks haven't been a real issue for me up until a couple of months ago, but they are all of a sudden in full swing. I have a multitude of other things that point to ptsd but I still deny it for some reason.
Anyway, I shall shut well up now.
But Hi.
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I actually just got diagnosed with this yesterday which is a bit completely terrifying tbh. Psychiatrist wants to put me on a focussed 20-wk therapy specifically for PTSD type issues, but this hasn't been finalized yet so may or may not happen what with waiting lists and all.
It's all quite daunting because she says I repress a lot so I'm not sure quite what would come out during therapy, considering I point blank cannot remember vast periods of time in my past.
Eek really scared, can't find it to tell anyone either >.<
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Sapphire hearts...thanks for your take on the anger thing. It does make sense what you said, I agree. I always think if I can understand the 'why' something happens I should be able to stop it, but on this one I cant! My mum gets really annoyed with me about it cos she says shes scared to go out with me cos she never knows when, where or who I will flip out at. But if I percieve someone as picking a fight with me, I feel like I have to fight back, because I refuse to be rendered helpless in any situation again. Hoping time might fix it.
I know what you mean about triggers at uni. Happened to me the other day too. Its difficult because in that kind of situation you cant turn the discussion in a different direction like you can with just friends, and if you get up and walk out its obvious too, so its difficult. I feel for you!
Emilythestrange... that must of been really difficult, Id of really struggled if my therapist didnt see me for a couple of weeks in the middle of treatment, I struggled if we missed just one week. I hope things are a bit better now?
Hugs to all x
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Sapphire hearts...thanks for your take on the anger thing. It does make sense what you said, I agree. I always think if I can understand the 'why' something happens I should be able to stop it, but on this one I cant! My mum gets really annoyed with me about it cos she says shes scared to go out with me cos she never knows when, where or who I will flip out at. But if I percieve someone as picking a fight with me, I feel like I have to fight back, because I refuse to be rendered helpless in any situation again. Hoping time might fix it.
I know what you mean about triggers at uni. Happened to me the other day too. Its difficult because in that kind of situation you cant turn the discussion in a different direction like you can with just friends, and if you get up and walk out its obvious too, so its difficult. I feel for you!
Emilythestrange... that must of been really difficult, Id of really struggled if my therapist didnt see me for a couple of weeks in the middle of treatment, I struggled if we missed just one week. I hope things are a bit better now?
Hugs to all x
'Where did I go wrong
My life's a bargain basement, all the good shits gone
Flashbacks just Wont stop, they just changed me to sertraline, they said it would help the flashbacks, it hasn't. :'(
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