needing to

clouds · 09-04-2011, 10:19 PM

Really feeling like i need to right now, feel like i need to so much, feel like i need to feel like i just need to

Rainbow Colors · 09-04-2011, 10:51 PM

Think about how you'll feel afterwards if you do... You can get through it without.

trekkiecab · 09-04-2011, 11:02 PM

can you tell us what is triggering your urge?

clouds · 10-04-2011, 05:02 PM

Everything has got to much just now, i cannot deal with anything right now, i need to i feel like once again i just need to

Frail Existence · 10-04-2011, 05:14 PM

Everything as in...? It will be okay though. And you feel like you may want to but you dont really want to. It will just make a bigger problem anyways. Wanna tell us what is wrong? Here if you need anything! *HUGS*

clouds · 10-04-2011, 05:19 PM

everything as in life, its all just got way to much i hate it i hate it here,
i do want to and i need to there is no escaping now i have to do it i need to do it

Frail Existence · 10-04-2011, 05:30 PM

Please find something other to do than hurt yourself!

Wanna tell me what of life you hate? It could only help to let it out.

clouds · 10-04-2011, 05:39 PM

i cant't stop it, i can't make the thougts of wanting and needing to to go away i just i really feel like i need and want to right now

all of it, i hate it here, want to go back

Frail Existence · 10-04-2011, 05:44 PM

Want to go back where? What is it that is making you not liking here and dont just say everything or life please?

What have you tried to suppress the urges so far? You can do it and I know you can, just got to push a little longer and I am sure you can get through it.

clouds · 10-04-2011, 06:01 PM

go back home

i have played games,walked up and down the stairs, scribbled on paper, torn up paper, these things are not working i can't stop it now its got to much i can't get past the feeling of wanting and needing to do it. i want to keep trying to not give in but i am not so sure that i can get through this wanting and needing to now

Frail Existence · 10-04-2011, 06:42 PM

I am sorry and if I may ask, why are you not at home?

I know you can get past it. try more things such as going for a jog/walk, do one of your favorite activities, watch a favorite tv show/movie, read a book, call someone up, draw on yourself or on something, paint something, rearrange your room or clean things up, listen to music, dance, sing, scream, go shopping, etc...

clouds · 10-04-2011, 09:17 PM

its back

Rainbow Colors · 11-04-2011, 01:55 AM

What's back? If you talk about it, it can only get better...we can't help you very well if we don't know what's going on.
Some other things you can do are take a bubble bath, write in a journal, go play the piano or sax (I read your profile, to try and see what kind of things you're into).
Here's an idea...Try taking a piece of paper and writing down all the reasons why you shouldn't do it. Just write down all the reasons why you're trying to stop and maybe that will help...I know it's really hard because when you're in this stage all you can think about is why you should do it, but since you're here, there's something in you that doesn't want to. You can beat the urges.