*TRIGGER WARNING* want to self harm badly
*trigger, specific talk*
I've been doing really well for a while, but the urges to self harm have been growing stronger, and I know from the last few years of experience, the longer I leave, the more severe it is when I eventually do it again.
But earlier I got sudden, really strong urges to cut. Was watching stuff, trying to distract myself, but it got worse.
I got a message from my friend, who I'm supposed to see later today, threw my blade across the room and went out for a long walk.
I got back a little while ago, urges have gone down, but that thought is still there.
It didn't bother me before, but now I'm a little scared. It's my first real strong urge in about two months. The time before, they were wanting me to see a plastics surgeon, and tried to have me sectioned when I refused to be seen or treated. Just, the longer I leave it, the worse it'll be. I'm probably lucky I've not had infections.
Last edited by Aardbei : 14-10-2017 at 03:53 PM.
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