As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say goodbye
But it's too late too pick up the value of my life
sick little butterfly I'll mend your wings, but I'm afraid I might break them they are delicate things.
I hope you all stay strong and take better care of yourselves than I have been known to do in real life.
Quote:
Originally Posted by safe enough distance away
keep at arms length there's a monster in me that I have trouble controlling occasionally *
Quote:
Originally Posted by Full metal alchemist
And i promise you there is nothing i won't give to see this (my problems) through
I wish i were a robot, robots memory can be easily wiped out without bad side effects, the emotions can be programmed and the physical damage can be rapaired in such a way no one would know it had happend.
I told another lie today
And I got through this day
No one saw through my games
I know the right words to say
Like "I don't feel well"
"I ate before I came"
Then someone tells me how good I look
and for a moment
For a moment I am happy
But when I'm alone
No one hears me cry
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful
The day I chose not to eat
What I do know is how I changed my life forever
I know I should know better
There are days when I'm okay
And for a moment
For a moment I find hope
But there are days when I'm not okay
And I need your help
So I'm letting go
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
You should know you're not on your own
These secrets are walls that keep us alone
I don't know when but I know now
Together we'll make it through somehow
Together we'll make it through somehow
I need you to know
I'm not through the night
Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light
I need you to know
That we'll be okay
Together we can make it through another day
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
keep at arms length
there's a monster in me
that I have trouble controlling
occasionally
Most of the time i can hide how i feel.
Last edited by GIGM : 03-12-2010 at 04:42 PM.
Reason: adding detail
I hope you all stay strong and take better care of yourselves than I have been known to do in real life.
Quote:
Originally Posted by safe enough distance away
keep at arms length there's a monster in me that I have trouble controlling occasionally *
Quote:
Originally Posted by Full metal alchemist
And i promise you there is nothing i won't give to see this (my problems) through
I wish i were a robot, robots memory can be easily wiped out without bad side effects, the emotions can be programmed and the physical damage can be rapaired in such a way no one would know it had happend.
Time has run out, for me,
Everything's distant
And I don't know what to believe
It's so hard,
Lost in the world's confusion
And I need to leave
For awhile, life is so meaningless
There is nothing worth a smile
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in his grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
I'm so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's something left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding on to all I think is safe
"how can I expect you to forgive
cling to the past I shed our blood and shatter your chance to live" from a song called "Brothers" from an anime called "full metal alchemist".
I know I take it out of context, but when I think about the potential future generations of my family and other past roubles these lyrics come to my mind as i am too afraid to get into a relationship. I'm sorry if they trigger anyone, if you think they might let me know and i will delete the post.
Last edited by GIGM : 04-12-2010 at 09:05 AM.
Reason: making something clear, edit 2: removing detail as i think i've put it far too messed up.
I hope you all stay strong and take better care of yourselves than I have been known to do in real life.
Quote:
Originally Posted by safe enough distance away
keep at arms length there's a monster in me that I have trouble controlling occasionally *
Quote:
Originally Posted by Full metal alchemist
And i promise you there is nothing i won't give to see this (my problems) through
I wish i were a robot, robots memory can be easily wiped out without bad side effects, the emotions can be programmed and the physical damage can be rapaired in such a way no one would know it had happend.
Oh, i was travelling down this road too long
trying to find my way back home
the old me is dead and gone
dead and gone
My Blog about Trauma & Recovery:http://seekingafrica.wordpress.com/
"It's astonishing, numbing, to find out that inside you, there is a stranger. One that has your arms, your legs, your eyes. A sleepless, restless stranger, who keeps walking, keeps eating, keeps living..." The Brave OneMovie(2007)
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than ****ing perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're ****ing perfect to me.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
"On the day I went away
Good bye
is all I had to say"
"i've seen blue skys through the tears in my eyes
and i realise
i'm going home"
I hope you all stay strong and take better care of yourselves than I have been known to do in real life.
Quote:
Originally Posted by safe enough distance away
keep at arms length there's a monster in me that I have trouble controlling occasionally *
Quote:
Originally Posted by Full metal alchemist
And i promise you there is nothing i won't give to see this (my problems) through
I wish i were a robot, robots memory can be easily wiped out without bad side effects, the emotions can be programmed and the physical damage can be rapaired in such a way no one would know it had happend.
i won't post the lyrics as the ones i'm thinking of may trigger...
"red sam"- flyleaf
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
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