Triggering (SI) - Just me whining, don’t bother reading it
12345, five characters, nothing to do with the origional post
Last edited by ~*forever_broken*~ : 11-12-2008 at 10:40 PM.
Reason: Just a waste of space and attention seeking... sorry y'all *shrug*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Ally, I love you, I hope you know that, but you need to get a grip hun. You KNOW that this is not helping you, hell you KNOW that this is detrimental, not only to your physical health but to your mental health. A new form of SI is not good. Please find someone to speak to before things get even more out of hand. You were doing really well, and I was god damn proud of you. Don't let it get out of control, you can have it back *hugs* xxx
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
*hugs tight*
Your not sick or stupid, in fact you have done really well in not cutting, because it is so difficult and you have been strong.
However it sounds like you do need a little bit of help at the moment because your frustrations are boiling over and causing you too injure yourself in another way.
Please try and speak to your therapist about this so you could maybe develop coping strategies when it all gets to much instead of hitting your head. You will get there hun.
If you ever want to chat PM me.
Take care,
Phoenix xxx
Wish i could tie you up in my shoes....make you feel unpretty too...
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see......
You're still here in my heart.
Don't have a therapist any more... no worries, it'll pass... Thanks all.
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Ally? Please don't just let it pass? Cause it'll happen again and I and nobody else on here wants to lose you. Can you try to get with a therapist again?
*hugs*
I'm not trying to push anything on you honestly. I trust your judgment because you're obviously a smart cookie, but I'm getting a very strong vibe that you need help right now.
I hope things start looking up. Update me, please, I'm thinking about you.
love,
D'Arcy
Nullum magnum ingenium sine mixtura dementiae.
Lambchop, LadyMacbeth, Butterfly525, and Moonchild are my sisters. Ruffle is my daughter. That Faery Kid is my kitty!
I really think I'll be fine y'all, truly. I do not want to find another therapist. I am heartily sick of having to tell yet one more person how ****ed up I am. I really just want to be normal. I want it all to go away, to never have been... the dysthymia, the numerous MD episodes (this last, and worst, was number five), the cutting and the scars that have come with. I want it all gone. I am a bad psychology student (well, grad I guess) because I cannot handle the fact that I am so ****ed up and yet am all understanding and empathcic and all that with others who are... it is like it is OK for them but for me it is just a character flaw . It does not make sense, I know that, but I cannot help it, even knowing how flawed it is...
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I cannot handle the fact that I am so ****ed up and yet am all understanding and empathcic and all that with others who are... it is like it is OK for them but for me it is just a character flaw . It does not make sense, I know that, but I cannot help it, even knowing how flawed it is...
I hear you... I am the same way. It sucks... and I wish I could say something to make you feel better... but my brain isn't working well these days...
**lots and lots of hugs**
Remember there's no such thing as a small act of kindness.
Every act creates a ripple with no logical end. ~ Scott Adams
mmm-mmm, hugs are good, I like them, sometimes they are what helps the most :)
*sigh* I feel so melodramatic... and the thing is, I do not think I feel bad enough to make finding another therapist worth my time, or their time talking to me for that matter... I'm on some sort of ledge I think and I cannot walk away and I cannot fall over... one or the other would be preferable I really do not care wich at this point
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
I'm on some sort of ledge I think and I cannot walk away and I cannot fall over... one or the other would be preferable I really do not care wich at this point 