I'm having a bad time
I called the duty worker earlier because of bad thoughts of jumping in front of a train for reasons that are not quite clear (saving the world?) And I don't want to do it because I don't want to die AT ALL
But I don't see a way out of it
I'm supposed to do it later
Duty worker said to call crisis team if things are still not good so I've just called the crisis team, which took a lot because I really hate phone calls but I'm desperate, and they said use coping skills which I have been doing all day or present at A&E
I'm not sure what I really expected them to do but I'm now in floods of tears and I don't know what to do
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Hi, you don't know me but I'm an age old lurker with massive fears about posting - but I hate to see you struggling so much - please, please take care.... take a breath and breeeeath.... You're so worth it....
I managed to get to sleep by taking some old medication which wasn't the best idea as this medication can be quite dangerous if taken in that way.
But I needed to sleep or I would have gone out
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Thank you
Slimming world went very well. Staying for group as a distraction. It's a nice group
I have nothing else planned if my mum is too busy
Tbh I don't feel 100% seizure wise so may not be wise for me to bus 2 hours to mums anyway.
I'll see how it goes.
I'm meant to be getting a call from the duty worker this morning so I'll see what happens with that
Thanks for replying
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I told him that
He said to call back if I'm still struggling
I had a nice time with Jasmine and mum which distracted me but now I'm waiting for the bus home and its all come back.
I don't know what to do.
No way I'm calling crisis again
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Can you head over to A&E instead of going home? I think I remember you saying crisis suggested that was an option yesterday. Just wanted to say it's okay to do that and might be an idea? You don't have to suffer if there are people there to help you.