Contains abuse - Feeling like my memories are incomplete
I am in the process of training to become a foster carer. A part of that was to write out a timeline of my life. I feel like there are a lot of missing pieces and a lot of the behaviours I was often in trouble for are similar to trauma and crisis responses. I lacked the language to describe so much and there have been a few memories that have been hidden for years before coming up. I have been feeling numb and quite frightened since I wrote the timeline. Much of it I can master well enough to pass for normal but it does make me nervous there might be more missing. Most of my memories are quite patchy. I need to be together to be able to help the kids I will support.
Does anyone else have experience where they just don't know quite what happened or why they responded as they did?
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