Triggering (SI/Suicide) - I just generally need some hugs and support

[((deleted))]

OKay, um, I moved out in the summer-only shortly after being discharged from psych. And I'm just struggling so badly with living on my own and my studies and it's all become overwhelming. And so many people at work say to talk to them...but i can't....because if i ring them and still cut/od/whatever then how much worse would that be?
I really want to talk to my tutor at college, cos so much of this is related to struggling with my college work. But i'm scared if I tell her I'm not okay then i won't be able to stop talking and i'll say too much and end up with **** kicking off at college again like last year.
IDK, i just feel so alone in all this, like no-one understands.

i don't make sense do i.

[phoenixflames_forever]

You do make sense and sorry your having such a rough time *hugs*. Maybe you could kind of rehearse wat you feel comfortable saying to college tutor before you go talk it out. But talking about it really is your best opton its not a nice thing to go through alone, and your tutor may be more helpful than you think and alos maybe you could try talking about it to a councellor maybe?
And remember you really aren't alone it is a very difficult thing to do trying to cope on your own without support after extended time on a ward, you've done well so far but its ok to cut yourself a break and ask for help when you need it.
PM me if you need to chat :)

Take care,
Phoenixflames

[Stellata]

What would you most like us to understand?

[irkeninvader]

Could you send your tutor an email if you are worried about speaking to her? That way you can re-read what you've written and edit out anything you decide you don't want to tell her. If you are struggling with the work though, I think it's a good idea to say something and get some help

[((deleted))]

Thank you guys. I just want people to understand how I feel and what I'm going through really. And understand that I cut because I don't know what else to do, how else to make myself feel better.

[Misunderstood.]

holld

[((deleted))]

The smileys make me happy! I'm just gonna watch them for a bit longer. Thanks.

[Misunderstood.]

You're welcome ..and PM me if you want to talk.
If you're not upto talking to anyone in RL.

Catherine x-x-x-x