I suffer from depression quite alot, but mine always come in 3 months of severe depression the 3 months of being rather happy, and so on.
I have been to the doctor and have been treated for depression several times, but I was wondering if anyone else has bouts of it, rather than just solidly?
I got over a REALLY bad time in May and then was really happy with everything, and it's begining to come back.
It never seem's to go or stay, and I don't know what to do because the second I get over it, it comes back.
Does this happen to anyone else where they come seperatly?
If I have posted in the wrong part or this is a bad post I'm really sorry, but I'm not sure where to start.
I just got diagnosed with Depression once and was treated with Fluoxitine
then the second time I was treated with Cytalopram, but I had the worst side effects to them and could never take them again.
I also find that when i go through phases of depression, I go into 'day dream' states, Where it feels similar to a CAMERA in a film just watching... if that makes sense?
I'm so sorry if I'm rambling on, I'm tired and can;t sleep and quite frankly had enoug today and needed to ask some questions.
I don't have any advice, but I have patches of different levels of depression, does that make sense? Some days it's bearable, I feel like complete ****, but what am i going to do, & then at other times i'm a suicidal mess.
I don't really have much advice, but can you look back & see if anything has triggered previous bouts od depression?
something as caused several of them, but as I said sometimes i can just happen, with no actual reason, I hate it because i never know when my mood will be ok, and how long it will take to get out of it, I feel like someone has took over my body, then i feel like me, Sorry if this is confusing for anyone else to udnerstand what I'm saying, I'm terrible with grammer
Roiben's idea is very good; it's sometimes easy to overlook (or forget)little things when you're trying to recall mood/feelings/potential triggers from a few months back.
I'd say give it a try.
You could also ask to see a different doc and ask about therapy of some sort, as well.
Good luck.
xx
I agree with other people to record how you feel etc. Also when i was depressed i would be depressed, suicidal, the works for about 6 months at a time sometimes less and not as bad, other times i would be ok for a month maybe 2 at most and it would start again.
That's a really good idea guys, I did begin doing on but because I was in a good place i didn't feel the need, but I'm going to start again and mark them down whenever.
I think it's awful that I have spend almost £4000 on shopping in the last 6 months. I do it because it stops me hurting myself and puts my mind on other things, but when i realise I've done it, it brings me back to my unhappy place [i don't like like the 'D' word]. i havn't even got control over money anymore.
Money can be incredibly difficult to manage when one is suffering with Depression. I know it has often been for me. It is worth remembering that a key thing about Depression is the fact that it can change your rationale and perspective. This makes spending money, perhaps more frivulously than one would have otherwise, a more common occurance - especially when we are seeking any distraction and means to feel better we can find.
It might be worth discussing with a Therapist or CAB ways in which you can regain controll over your spending.
Perhaps only allow a certain amount in cash in your wallet per week, or month? Or set yourself allowances for specific items, ensuring at least one is a savings allowance (so, if you continue to save, you can get a larger item, but if you chip into it for smaller ones - you can not get the larger item at that time).
I am sorry I do not have better words right now (head is a bit muddled and I am tired).
I do understand how disheartening it can be to view finances in retrospect and realise what has been spent. I have got myself into debt in the past, through my depression and am now thankfully in a more stable place. I hope you do not hit that point (it can be scary) and are able to reach out for help now, to put in place ways to better controll it.
Roiben x
(will stop rambling now)
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I've tried the thing with the 'only money in your purse' thing, but then I always have a card on me.
It's terrible.
when I'm depressed I do the mosdt awful things, the thing I would Never ever ever do in my life, and it destroys everything I have when I'm feeling fine, I feel like some horrible person takes over my body. It's terrifying, and I keep arguing with my friend, and I know it's starting again, and I'm so terrified.
The 'money in wallet' will only work if you leave your cards at home!
And, is there anyone near by that you can discuss this with, someone who can act as your voice of reason at those times when you are acting out of character as a result of the Depression? My boyfriend does this for me, and I have found it helps, both with the spending and with the ability to have someone disuade me from doing or saying things I may not normally do or say.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
