Do you need medical attention for your injury? If you're not sure if it needs medical attention or not, I'd get it checked out anyway, just to be safe.
Ok, well no one can make you go and get medical attention if you don't want it. Can you make yourself a hot sugary drink (like tea) and sit and drink it, it might make you feel a bit better.
You didn't let them hurt you, rape isn't when you let someone use you, rape is when they have sex with you without your consent, which is sadly what you experienced. If you knew it was going to happen I bet you wouldn't have gone within a 100 miles of there.
I feel people try to take on responsibility when they were actually powerless to gain a sort of control of what happened. But sadly you were powerless then, but you can have control now, you can take the power back and empower yourself.
No, I wouldn't of ever gone anywhere near if I new what was going to happen, but it doesn't change how I feel and it wasn't the first time that I've been raped and that just makes me think that it was my fault because no one is that unlucky.
I seem to attract abuse, first my mum and stepdad then partner and everything else.
I just don't know how to come back from this its to hard I just want to die it hurts to much.