it does suck aye.
i know how you feel about never being good enough. but in the end whatever we do in life for ourselves, it only matters that we please ourselves and meet our own aims and goals. and if u get a sense of achievement or satisfaction out of something then it doesnt matter what others think.
i am off to bed as i am flipping shattered. hope you guys get through today ok. jeremy hope you have an ok night. and u cant do anything silly cos u need to keep coming on here to cheer us up :) all the support you give on here IS definitely good enough :)
nighty night all.
Even as the stone of the fruit must break
that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.
There are only two ways in which one can live their life. One is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is.
I've got one more year at college yet before I go to uni :(
but when I do go...I aim to get as far away as possible!!!!
and there is NOTHING that will change their minds >.<
I was debating running away last night....
or doing something silly...
:/
*hugs Jeremy*
You are MORE than good enough for us :]
you always make me smile hehe :D
*hugs Alexx, Cloe, Jeremy, Callie, Emma, and anyone I missed*
Sorry... I'm SO tired... 8 shots of whisky, 40 cuts and a very broken nights sleep later... At least I'm not crying every time I look at my cat... I'm sorry, I know there are other, bigger worries here but... I'll probably be fined for having him in uni housing, made to send him home to my mom, and there's a possibility they could decide to kick me out of my apartment... And the possibility of finding an apartment during the school year let alone one that will allow pets ... They won't understand... They won't understand that I need him... They won't believe that he has been the reason a few times that I stayed alive... They just. Won't. Understand.
*sits in her corner, miserable*
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
Sweety maybe its worth a go just TRYING to explain to them....
You wont know til you try will you?
I'm sorry I really wish I could help you....
Have you been drinking water? (to stop a hangover)
*hugs you tight*
Location: Denial Tent, Virtual Psych Ward Campsite, MA, USA
I am currently:
no no no they cannot take your kitty away from you that is not acceptable!
Alexx i am sorry you have to move maybe i think talking to your parents is a good idea and maybe they can wait till you go to uni?
Chloe and Jem i send you big hugs and i am sorry you both had rough nights
Jeremy you are so more than good enough you are so kind and supportive
and Chloe yes it does matter it always matters and you matter you rock
Emma i hope you are feeling better i know you have been so stressed lately but i hope you know what a good friend you are and how you went like above and beyond and you are just super sweetie you kick ass
Alexx put your poems in creative corner! i bet they are lovely and it would be nice for you to share them
I've tried talking to them...and I get called selfish....
Apparentlly...I'm not allowed to have a bad day either...
Ive been in a bad mood and really struggling today...
and all my mum could do was scream at me, call me **** and tell me that if I dont like it to get out coz she doesnt want me here....
thanksafreakinbunch >.<
*sigh*
I might put a few on...see what people think... :/
Supposed to be going out with my friend and someone else tonight.
I don't feel like it. I want my family to disappear so I can get stupidly drunk and cover myself with cuts. But no.
Instead I am dressed, I will go down stairs, get some comment about what I am wearing and then told for the fourth time today that I should lose some weight.
Go out, pretend to be hyper happy at this place and dance my arse off and get back at about 4am to be woken up by my sister at 8.
The only way this is going to work is if I get stupidly drunk. hmmmm. yep seems like the only proper solution to me. Damn :(
Last edited by Pomegranate : 12-04-2008 at 10:14 PM.
Reason: typo
Maybe you could take a corner of the Denial Tents super-stretchiness with you?
And ignore all the comments!!
Parents are silly anyway...
and what they say ISNT ACTUALLY 100% true
so when they say "you should lose some weight" really...it means "you're looking good so it's ok :]"
Alexx hun, I will read it even if nobody else does. I am still waiting for an update on the vampire story too :)
Hmmm....not quite sure how you translate...'you should lose some weight' to 'you look good' but ok lol. Thanks anyway. Been very restrained so far and just had a glass of wine. Friend is picking me up any minute.
*picks up corner of denial tent and attachs it to self so can never leave regardless of what happens tonight*
*hugs Alexx*
Sweetie, I'm sorry, it sounds like your parents aren't very understanding *snuggles*
*snuggles Emma*
Sweetie it'll be OK, you've got the denial tent and alcohol... Just please be safe luv *huge hugs*
I feel awful. I know I'm being ridiculous but this cat thing has really got me down. He keeps me going. He cuddles me and he harasses me and... I need him
Ugh, and forty little cuts on one arm... Hurts, stings... Feels like I got in a fight with a rose bush and lost... Forty... I'm SUCH an idiot
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
*hugs Ally*
Hun have you tried explaining the situation to the Uni people?
owwies :( *makes your arm better*
you arent an idiot...you're just having a hard time at the moment, but you'll get through it...
it'll be ok darling
xxxx
Last edited by Detour. Derail : 12-04-2008 at 11:20 PM.
Reason: stupid "heads-not-with-it" moment ><
lol I'm the other twin
No, I haven't had an opportunity to talk to the Uni folks... They've scheduled a meeting for Friday afternoon... But they won't listen. This Uni sucks... They don't really give a s*it about their students... They won't care. They're just concerned about the fact that I broke a rule g*d damn
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe