This feels odd
This feels really odd...talking about my desire to self harm.
I've recently been divorced but I have found true love, so its kind of strange that my desire to cut is mote intense than ever. I'm not a regular self harmer at all but I've found that the longing and deep intensity to cut isn't going away as it has before. I think that I'm beating myself up for being happy and I'm also petrified that I'm going to lose this love I have found. Until recently I didn't see that I was a self harmer, but I can't explain how deep the desire is to cut. I panicked a week ago because I didn't have any razors which I could use if I needed to cut, I've got these razors now but still haven't used one, but I really really do want to. It almost feels like self harming (making myself suffer) by not cutting, if that makes sense.
I'm new to this openness, I'd like to talk with someone who knows how I'm feeling.
You all take care of yourselves
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