I am so sorry that you were hurt this much, in this way.
*hugs*
But I also think that you are amazingly strong to have survived this atrocity - still to be living after what has happened definitely takes courage and strength.
You are none of what your mother said. Take care of yourself sweetie. xxx
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
your a very brave and strong woman for having the courage to tell your story, you were told to keep it a secret for so long so it must have been hard to talk about it.
sadly i can relate to a lot of what you went through, although my mum is on drugs and a prostitute she never abused me, but my stepdad and his friends did for over ten years.
you have nothing to feel ashamed for, you did your best to survive and you have. you deserve more than that from a parent, and as above post you are none of those things your mum wrote or drilled into you for so many years. she should not have made you pay for something that she was struggling with.
stay safe and take care sweetie
PM if you ever need to chat xoxoxox
Do not follow the common path.....go where there is no path and leave a trail.....
Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. *hugs* Thank goodness you are away from her now. I can tell that despite all you've been through you are a strong person. Your past was hard, no one should ever have to endure that, but you got away. I hope you are finding the strength you need within yourself to heal. Your mom had a lot of issues she should have dealt with, but she likely felt ashamed and too consumed with everything and drew herself in further. But you got out, and I am so happy that you did. You deserve a happy life. If you ever need anything at all, someone to talk to, I'm here.
thanks for all your replies - to be honest i wasnt expecting anyone to but it meant a lot that you did so thanks. i'm not strong though - i know i have to be and have to get on with everything but at the same time i dont feel i can. i just want to make it all stop in my head. even though it doesnt happen anymore (and thats the best thing ever) it doesnt stop in my head. i triggered myself so much writing what i did and feel so ashamed and stupid for writing it...arhh sorry
sweetie you may not feel strong but the fact that you have survived and are here today says you are. the fact that you can share something that is so personal with other people takes courage. it would be easy to just give in, living is the hard part, but you're doing it hun.
have you been to a counsellor at all? your past will always be a part of you, but it doesnt make you who you are today, and i think counselling would help to sort through all the crap that you have to deal with in your head..it took me years to finally get counselling, and as hard as it is it has to be worth it in the end.
and you are not stupid, you're a brave young woman
take care sweetie
PM if you need to chat xoxoxox
Do not follow the common path.....go where there is no path and leave a trail.....
*hugs you and holds you tight*
i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through all of that, but you are strong for making it through, and continuing to fight.
good for you for admitting it.
*hugs*
PM me anytime, k?
x x x x x x x x x
krysta
