Help me!
I feel like life is so impossible at the moment. I’m so upset, I’m scared and I feel so irritable and low for some time.
My care is in between trust so I don’t know who to calll. I’m finding things so hard at the moment and I don’t know how to cope. So much is happening in my life as well at work. I have no space to collect my thought and relax.
I’m finding g it hard that my dad chose my step mum along time ago and doesn’t want contact with me anymore. I have to call and then he basically says I have to go within 10 minutes. He has a new family. My brother is heavily into drugs and he recent had a legal air rifle which has scared me a lot as my grandad was shot and died and and my granny was badly injured. My Aunty, uncle, and my cousin don’t want me anymore. I’ve been push aside because my cousin married a girl whose jealous of me and I can’t cope trying to fight to be loved as much as I was.
I feel so sad. I really want to self harm and stay in bed. If I do anything and call in sick I wi be kicked of my course at work as they have seconded me to do my nursing training but I’ve been in hospital last year and missed a lot. I’m failing in every aspect of my life. I feel work is so hard and another reason I can’t go off sick is because my sickness record is so bad and I can also lose my job. I hate I was in hospital last year and I received a letter from dVLa to say I can’t drive anymore due to being unwell but I don’t know why as my dr thinks I’m fine to drive.
Everything is going so wrong. I want to die. If o didn’t have my husband I would try again to end it. I’m so serious and I know I’m high risk because of my previous attempts.
I want to self harm so much. I don’t know what to do.
Sorry this is so long but please can someone help me. Thank you.
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