Hi I am new here and not sure how to start but here goes nothing... I have been cutting for a few weeks. It started when I caught my husband cheating with my best friend we have two kids. He continued to talk to her after deciding he wants to divorce and this all happens two weeks before he left for boot camp. It first happened when I first caught him cheating and i felt like my whole life was falling apart and shattering and there was no way to control it so cutting was the only thing I could control was to cut. I felt and ashamed after a week he noticed the cuts on my arm and I told him it was nothing and I was stopping. Unfortunately the more lies I discovered about my ex the worse I felt and the more I wanted to cut again till I finally did it again. Feeling ashamed and feeling like I couldn’t tell anyone in my life but I knew I needed help, I recently went to a new church and I was talking to the pastor and I just told him I was doing destructive behavior and finally showed him the cuts, he listened and encouraged me to find help and support thus here I am seeking help.