Hello there hun,
I can totally relate to how you are feeling and I know how distressing it can be. Do you have any professional help for this at all? I know it can be scary but I really advise talking to someone about it - write it in a letter if you need to - and seeking support as there are a range of therapies than can help. Could you try explaining to your Mum just how hard you are finding it, or find some resources online to show her?
Alternatively / in the mean time, try to expose yourself to small anxiety-provoking situations bit by bit. I know that you might want to hide away, but doing so will only escalate your anxiety as you forget how it can be and your mind blows the fear out of proportion. Start with something that you feel like you might be able to do even though it's a bit nerve-wracking, because it's essential to make small achieveable goals for yourself so not to be overwhelmed. Maybe going for a little walk around the block, or chatting on a skype call to a close friend. As you're in that situation, try to distract yourself from your own worries by listening to music, describing your surroundings to yourself or simply jsut focusing your mind on another thought. It's easier said than done, but practise makes perfect, and although it may sound hard sometimes you just need to give yourself a little push to get started. Remember to reward yourself for it too! :)
As for making friends, the internet is always a good place to start! Common interest forums - including here on RYL - are great places to start forming friendships and building confidence. Or, if you feel up to it, try to get in touch with some of your old friends and reignite those friendships. Facebook is a good place to connect yourself until you feel ready to go back in public.
Take care <3
-Holly
(edit: I'm sorry if any of this didn't make sense or if it was a bit too forthright. I don't think I got everything in to words properly / as sympathetically as usual... I've read through some of your previous posts though and I can relate to a lot of what you are struggling with, as well as being at similar age. If you ever want to talk to someone, feel free to PM me love <3)
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