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Old 16-07-2020, 03:12 PM   #261
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Please don't let this/us be another place that hasn't given you what you need. Is there anything we can do?





I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 16-07-2020, 06:08 PM   #262
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It's our responsibility to take care of ourselves. Not yours.

You can PM me if you want, if that feels safer.

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Old 16-07-2020, 09:39 PM   #263
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^wise and articulate words from two of the RYL greats!

I can’t add to what they’ve said aside from my name in red but I heartily agree.



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Old 19-07-2020, 01:13 AM   #264
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A lot of things that people post on here are upsetting or distressing for others to read for a variety of reasons.
Most of the time it is probably more about what the reader goes through at the time rather than what the poster says.

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Old 24-07-2020, 05:25 PM   #265
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Thanks everyone. Sorry its taken me a while to come back to this to say that to you all.

I don't know what to say. Things are both good and bad. I'm making a concerted effort to do nice things for myself- both with others and by myself. Its not helping. I am so close to burning again. I dont know how much longer I can not burn for.



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Old 24-07-2020, 06:08 PM   #266
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I know this might be silly to point out, but even if doing kind things for yourself isn't helping the urges or thoughts to go away, it doesn't sound like it's hurting you. So maybe it being a neutral thing for now is actually good?

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Old 24-07-2020, 11:40 PM   #267
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I am glad to hear you're doing nice things, it counts and it matters.
It might not make the urges go away, but it shows that there is fight left in you.
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Old 25-07-2020, 08:18 AM   #268
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The thing is all its proving is that I can build a life worth living and still everything is too hard, too difficult, too distressing and not worth it.



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Old 25-07-2020, 12:52 PM   #269
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Cant do this.



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Old 25-07-2020, 05:34 PM   #270
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It isn't your time to go, I am sure. What have you done to distract and care for yourself? You are beautiful inside and out and you are worth more than you think.



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Old 25-07-2020, 06:43 PM   #271
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What would have to change to make it worth living? It can be as impossible or unrealistic sounding as you want it to be.



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Old 25-07-2020, 08:07 PM   #272
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Thanks tamo. Earlier I just went to bed and did crochet kept me safe. Then mum came and I'm having dinner at hers.

Just feel mostly ok? Like not every single thing be effort, either mentally or physically. I cant be physically and mentally poorly. I cant. I'm sick of fighting,likejust be normal you know? And I'd like to not hear voices and not feel I have to self harm.

And I think my Bert's is poorly.



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Old 28-07-2020, 04:45 PM   #273
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How are you? The urges and other things is just using the part of your brain, don't let them. You just have to saying to the voices that you're not going to do it even if it gets louder you can fight it. I'm sorry I can't finish your reply this. is far as I can go due to some movements.





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Old 28-07-2020, 05:07 PM   #274
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Trying a second chance. It's ok to be having a bit of peace from with the things you've been through. I know they will likely be up and down with what's going on but you can get better.

What's happening with Bertie?





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Old 28-07-2020, 10:00 PM   #275
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Sending so much love, I'm sorry that life doesn't feel worth living and that things are so hard. Has medication ever been any use with reducing the voices?

How is Bertie now?



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Old 29-07-2020, 05:21 PM   #276
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Thanks for replying guys.

Lindsay I k ow it must have been hard to type so thank you for making g such big effort. It really means a lot, as does your encouragement.

The only med that worked they wont give me.

Bertie is on pain medicine and is better until it wear off then he is grumpy again.

I went to the burns unit today. I find it so hard.

And I am meeting new care coordinator tomorrow. Very anxious. And then going to plymouth as I've found out my friends cancer is back and worse. And then I'm speaking on an internet call to the emotional needs service lead on tuesday.

And I got a message that the crisis planning meeting I requested isnt happening until september which is ridiculous.

I havent had any support from them now since before I hurt my arm weeks ago.



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Old 29-07-2020, 10:50 PM   #277
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unsure what to say but still reading and care. it sounds like you were able to get bertie to a vet which is good. i hope the medicine helps him soon. <3



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Old 30-07-2020, 12:03 AM   #278
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That sounds really overwhelming.
I am sorry your team has left you to fend for yourself. Again.

I hope the meeting goes well and they will have something to offer. Anything really.

The bad news about your friend must be hitting you hard. I am really sorry your friend is so ill.

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Old 01-08-2020, 10:36 AM   #279
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It sounds like you have so much support being planned, I hope something is useful. I know a lot of it isn't really going to touch the surface but at least things are being planned. Whatever you do be kind to yourself, you don't deserve to be not looked after my yourself just because other people aren't doing it.





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I was just thinking about you and then saw you hadn’t been online for a while. I was wondering how you were doing?





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