this is ****ing heartbreaking. rich was an amazing guy, but you had to know him. through the last year or something we were in a disagreement but **** it none of that matters.
he was extremely loyal, and extremely protective of those he cared about. we were good friends for many years and this is so unexpected.
love you man. i hope you're finally at peace.
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself. My spoken words.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
I wish you were here so that i could tell you how much of an arse you are.
You will be missed here so terribly, i don't know what the mods are going to do with themselves without you terrorising the boards with your bluntness and sarcasm.
On a personal note, i have loved the many many hours of conversation we have had. You were always so caring, so passionate, so honest and so willing to give up your time to talk. I was reading through old facebook conversations yesterday, i feel like i should have let you know more how awesome you are.
You are so loved - i hope you knew. I think you did.
I couldn't help but go through and reread old conversations with Richard. There are thousands of messages so I didn't reread them all, but I found some great things from him. Quoted below, things he said to me when I was having a difficult time:
"Okay, your mind is the controlling force that is in play, to you your mind is the universe. So when you are feeling overwhelmed and restrained you will naturally feel like there is a greater force at play
You and you alone much challenge these feelings and tell yourself, "no... You will not control me today"
"I am powerful, I am in control, I am strong enough to face today"
It will get exhausting, when it does that is when you need to allow yourself to break down and cry, free yourself of the burden and the tension that is weighting you down, scream loud and then get up and start telling yourself these things again
Best do the screaming out in the middle of nowhere
Some people may see that as insanity."