I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.
It sits in silence, eats away at me.
It feeds like cancer. This guilt could fill a ****ing sea.
Pulling teeth, wolves at my door.
Now falling and failing is all I know.
This disease is getting worse.
I counted my blessings, now I'll count this curse.
The only thing I really know: I can't sleep at night.
I'm buried and breathing in regret.
Yeah!
The only thing I really know: I can't sleep at night.
I'm buried and breathing in regret.
I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.
I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.
I may look happy, but honestly dear,
the only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear.
I see the vultures, they watch me bleed.
They lick their lips, as all the shame spills out of me.
Repent! Repent! The end is nigh!
Repent! Repent! We're all gonna die!
Repent! Repent! These secrets will kill us!
So get on your knees, and pray for...
Repent! Repent! The end is nigh!
Repent! Repent! We're all gonna die!
Repent! Repent! These secrets will kill us!
So get on your knees, and pray for forgiveness!
We all carry these things inside that no one else can see.
They hold us down like anchors. They drown us out at sea.
I look up to the sky, there may be nothing there to see.
But if I don't believe in him, why would he believe in me?
Why would he believe in me?
Why would he believe in me?
Why would he believe in me?
Why would he believe in me?
Ruh!
I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you don't know.
I've got a secret.
It's on the tip of my tongue, it's on the back of my lungs.
And I'm gonna keep it.
I know something you will never know.
You will never know.
I know something you don't know
drown yourself in alcohol ,
everybody slips and falls
choke on evvery dream you ever had
keep yourself in six degree]
s no one ever comforts me
why should they bother when im alone
and im so damn bored
The 21st comes so soon every month An anniversary of not being strong enough
You're much too co-dependent
A shrink is recommended
Your father tells you to try to be responsible
Your mother loves you, but not the way she did before
Your brother's torn to pieces
But no one knows the reasons
He loves the winter, but it smells too much like memories
The ornament she gave him still hangs from his Christmas tree
A jingle bell will glisten
That's when she loved to kiss him
So say farewell to all the little things she would say and do
The morning, sleepy eyed girl waves goodbye to you
You're much too co-dependent
A shrink is recommended
Yeah...
But yeah, who are the people you hang around with?
Who are the ones you're gonna call?
When you feel like ending it all?
But yeah, who are the people you hang around with?
Who are the ones you're gonna call?
When you feel like ending it all?
theres so much sad gonna flood the ocean]
were all in tears for a world thAT'S BROKEN
together we cry
there comes a time when every bird has to fly,
at some point evry rose has to die
its hard to let your children go
leave home
where they go who knows getting xdrunk and stoned all alone.....
... Im sick ofd looking for those heroes in the sky to teach us how to fly
togther we cry
Hate is a strong word but I really really really don't like you.
***
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for? Do you know what you're doing to me?
***
Well now you're here, you are in your life
And now you're finding out why You've got to learn how to fight
Before you learn how to fly
So stick your fist up prove them wrong
Don't lose the words to the song
Coz its a long way down
I guess you know that by now
But if you hold on
Well I will hold on too
And if you reach up
Yeah I will reach up too
Well now you're here in your life
It's such a long way down
Somehow you figure it out
So now you turn it around
But I know
But if you hold on
Well I will hold on too
And if you reach up
Yeah I will reach up too
Too...too.. too
And one thing before you go
Just let everyone know
You refuse to regret it
Just like everyone said you would
Just like everyone knew you would
Just say that you can
Sleep at night
Just say that you get nervous
With the struggle you fight
You can't believe what you're told
And you can't be alone and you can't let it go and you can't lose control and you know
You are not just anyone
No you're not just anyone
you're sick of feeling number, you're not the ony one
i'll take you by the hand and i'll show you a world you can understand
this life is filled with hurt when happiness doesn't work
trust me and take my hand, when the lights go off you will understand...
pain without love, pain, can't get enough
pain, i like it rought, 'bcause i'd rather feel pain than nothing at all
SI free since 12/20/09
~What the hell am i doing here? I don't belong here~
I'm waiting for the train,
The subway that only goes one way,
The stupid thing that will come to pull us apart
And make everybody late.
You spent everything you had,
Wanted everything to stop that bad
And now I'm a crashed credit card registered to Smith,
Not the name that you call me with.
You turned white like a saint,
I'm tired of dancing on a pot of gold flake paint.
Oh, we're so very precious, you and I,
And everything that you do makes me want to die.
Oh, I just told the biggest lie.
I just told the biggest lie.
The biggest lie.
Maybe I've lost it at last
Maybe my last lucid moment has past
I'm dancing with death, I suppose.
But really, who knows?
Could be I'm crazy to go.
They say you should stay with the devil you know
"You are imperfect and you are wired for struggle, but you are worthy of love and belonging." -Brene Brown
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
I love you so
Much more when you're not here
Watchin all the bad shows
Drinking all of my beer
I don't believe Adam and Eve
Spent every goddamn day together
If you give me some room there will be room enough for two
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
I don't wanna wake up with another
But I don't wanna always wake up with you either
No you can't hop into my shower
All I ask for is one f*ckin' hour
You taste so sweet
But I can't eat the same thing every day
Cuttin off the phone
Leave me the f*ck alone
Tomorrow I'll be beggin' you to come home
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
Why can't I just have it both ways
Go away
Come back
Go away
Come back
I wish you knew the difference
Go away
Come back
Go away
Give me a chance to miss you
Say goodbye
It'll make me want to kiss you
Tonight
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely
I'm tired
Leave me alone I'm lonely
Alone I'm lonely tonight
listen to what i say, cause there will come a day,
when everybody's screaming my name..
i don't need anybody to lead the way, i've got a dream to follow.
i don't need anybody to save today, because i've got tommorow,
i don't need anybody to break my fall, because i know that if my journey
leaves me weary at all, i got a voice that carries,
carry me on up, oh, gonna carry me down to L.A
that's because i have a bad mind, & i have gold in my veins, but he says that i got the purest heart, that he's ever seen ♥
All eyes on the calendar
Another year I claim of total indifference To here, the days pile up
With decisions to be made, I'm sure all of them were wrong Into this song I send myself
And with these drinks I plan to collapse And forget this wasted year, these wasted years
Devoted friends, they disappear And I'm sorry about the phone call and needing you
Some decisions you don't make
I guess it's just like breathing or not wanting to
There are some things you can't fake I guess that it's typical
To cling to memories you'll never get back again And to sort through old photographs
Of a summer long ago or a friend that you used to know
And there below
His frozen face
You wrote the name and that ancient date, that ancient date And you can't believe that he's really gone
When all that's left is a ****ing song and
I'm sorry about the phone call; and waking you.
I know that it is late,
But thank you for talking, because I needed to. Some things just can't wait.
I know the assumption
Is that I'm tough
With all my anger
That's fair enough
Even with friends
I have to compete
And try being me
When you walk down the street
It's not easy
By the by
Just surviving
In the public
Eye
You may think I'm strong
And I can do no wrong
But I'm vulnerable
So vulnerable
Without you
I may be hard to take
But you can call me fake
'Cause I'm vulnerable
So vulnerable
Without you
You know I can't ever
Bear to seem weak
Or have any doubts
That's just my technique
I put in the hours
At least I don't shirk
A little bravado
Does much of the work
I am no one's
Stepping stone
But I couldn't live life
In private
Alone
You may think I'm strong
And I can do no wrong
But I'm vulnerable
So vulnerable
Without you
I may be hard to take
But you can call me fake
'Cause I'm vulnerable
So vulnerable
Without you
At night
I am lying awake
Through the hours trying
To calculate
Am I good enough?
Could I contrive?
To keep this sham around
Will I survive?
I know you must sometimes
Think I don't care
Or even appreciate
What we share
Though I'm no one's
Stepping stone
The truth is I love you
And I'd go crazy
Alone
