So, one day somebody asks you how you feel,
And instead of telling the truth
You reel off a list of things you think they want to hear,
Because it's easier that way.
And so they treat you like this completely different person
Because all they know about you is misinformation,
And you gradually detach yourself from all your actions thinking...
I don't know why I don't mean what I say.
I don't know why I don't feel what I say.
You've been lying about your feelings for so long,
You've forgotten who you are.
All your twisted thoughts free flow
To everlasting memories
Show soul
Kiss the stars with me
And dread the wait for
Stupid calls returning to us to life
We say to those who are in love
It can't be true 'cause we're too young
I know that's true because so long I was
So in love with you
So I thought
A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
On my knees
Dim lighted room
Thoughts free flow try to consume myself in this
I'm not faithless
Just paranoid of getting lost or that I might lose
Ignorance is bliss cherish it
Pretty neighborhoods you learn to much to hold
Believe it not
And fight the tears
With pretty smiles and lies about the times
A year goes by
And I can't talk about it
The times weren't right
And I couldn't talk about it
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last between
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last, between
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
So we can talk about it
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last between
Chorus Romance says goodnight
Close your eyes and I'll close mine
Remember you, remember me
Hurt the first, the last healing
And I'm praying that we will see
Something there in between
Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
And all these twisted thoughts I see
Jesus there in between
I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here?
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forger the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
& don't resent me
& when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shed but I'm me
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me
I want you to know
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
When you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
& save me from myself
I can't be who you are
When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me
& when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest
Forgetting all the hurt inside
You've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come
& save me from myself
I can't be who you are
I can't be who you are
'All this for a damn princess'
♥ Drella, YellowLemon, ChloeBean
Glittertrashdoll, Blind at heart, Mercipourlevenin, Silent_Screams, Laurawr ♥
When all is said and done
Will we still feel pain inside?
Will the scars go away with night?
Try to smile for the morning light
It's like the best dream to have
Where everything is not so bad
Every tear is so alone
Like God himself is coming home
To say I
I can do anything, If you want me here
And I can fix anything, If you'll let me near
Where are those secrets now
That you're too scared to tell
I whisper them all aloud
So you can hear yourself
----
Do you feel like you've lost everything you can lose?
This is it can you hear me?
When you cry do your tears ever chill up the room?
Calling out in a moment of need.
Do you ever lay awake with a look in the eye?
Asking god if a wish is too big to deny?
I will offer a line, and it's ready for use.
Let me know are you ready for me?
----
We all make mistakes,
here's your lifeline,
If you want, I want to,
We all make mistakes,
Here's is a lifeline
if you want, I want to.
----
If I had a chance for another try, I wouldn't change a thing,
It’s made me all of who I am inside.
And if I could thank god, that I am here and that I am alive.
And everyday I wake, and tell myself a little harmless lie,
The whole wide world is mine. If I had a chance for another try, I wouldn't change a thing,
It’s made me all of who I am inside.
And if I could thank god, that I am here and that I am alive.
And everyday I wake, and tell myself a little harmless lie,
The whole wide world is mine.
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“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I can't escape this hell
So many times i've tried
But i'm still caged inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal, this animal)
I can't escape myself
(I can't escape myself)
So many times i've lied
(So many times i've lied)
But there's still rage inside
Somebody get me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this nightmare
I can't escape this hell
(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal)
So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)
"People have abused you lots in the past? Why do you then abuse yourself more?" - Quote
Sometimes I feel like I'm alone, Sometimes I feel like I'm not that strong, Sometimes I feel nothing at all, Sometimes I feel vulnerable, Sometimes I feel a little fragile
Here I sit and watch my world come crumbling down I cry for help but no one's around
Silently screaming as I bang my head against the wall
It seems like no one cares at all
Always an emotion, but how can I explain; how can I explain? Kind of like the scent of a rose, with words I can't explain, the same with my pain Caught up in emotion, goes over my head; goes over my head! Sometimes I got to think to myself is this life or death, am I living or am I dead
The clock keeps ticking, but nothing else seems to change Problems never solved, just rearranged
And when I think about all the times that I've had
Some were good most were bad
I search for personality and I look for things I cannot see Love and peace flash through my mind; pain and hate is all I find
Find no hope in nothing new and I never had a dream come true Lies and hate and agony; through my eyes that's all I see
If I'm gonna cry, will you wipe away my tears? And if I'm gonna die, Lord please take away my fear
Before I drown in sorrow, I just want to say;
How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
Today today; when I can't even smile today
Today today; when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
You think it's so funny...
...laugh at this!
So when I look outside my room I see the world, but not the reason What is done to me is not fair You call it fair I call it treason But I don't know what to do
Give me a sign I'll take whatever But if you want me here I am Ain't gonna die forever
And I tried to hold ya
But you just turned away And I tried to tell ya
But not a word I say I cried out so loudly
But you just covered your ears
And gave me all the signs
That you don't want my tears
So if you want me here I am
I sit and wait your decision
But my body fights my mind I headed straight for a collision
So am I getting near or am I still
Looking in all the wrong places
But the only thing that seems to change
Are the looks on the faces...
Doesn't anyone...seems like no one cares at all I search for personality and look for things I cannot see
Does anyone even care at all? Love and peace flash through my mind; pain and hate is all I find
Seems like no one cares at all Find no hope in nothing new and I never had a dream come true
Does anyone even care at all?
Lies and hate and agony; through my eyes that's all I see
Seems like no one cares at all
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow?
How will I laugh tomorrow, when I can't even smile today
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
How long will this take?
How much can I go through?
My heart, my soul aches
I don't know what to do
I bend, but don't break
Somehow I'll get through
Cause I have You
And if I had to crawl
Well You'd crawl too
I Stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is You see me through
O Lord, where are you?
Do not forget me here
I cry in silence
Can you not see my tears
When all have left me
And hope has disappeared
You'll find me here
And if I had to crawl
Well You'd crawl too
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is You see me through
When everything I had was lost
I had forgot but you have not
When I am lost
You have not lost me
When everything I had was lost
I had forgot but you have not
When I am lost
You have not lost me
You have not lost me
And if I had to crawl
Well You'd crawl too
I Stumble and I fall
Carry me through
The wonder of it all
Is You
See me through
Time has run out, for me.
Everything's distant and I don't know what to believe.
It's so hard, lost in the world confusion.
And I need to leave, for a while.
Life is so meaningless, there is nothing worth a smile.
So goodbye, I'll miss you.
And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.
It's been the years, of abuse.
Neglected to treat the dissorder,
That controls my youth, for so long.
I'm in a fleshy tomb, burried up above the ground.
It's no use, why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more.
So goodbye, life's abuse.
And I'm sorry, but this is my fate.
Everything is worthless, no one who wants me to stay.
And I'm sorry, but I've waited too long.
So here's my goodbye, no one will cry over me.
I'm not worth any tears.
See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done
And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear
Louder louder And we'll run for our lives I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do
Light up...
Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads
Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days Making up for all this mess
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
thank you for showing me
that best friends cannot be trusted
and thank you for lying to me
your friendship and good times we had
you can have them back
Fill these spaces up with days
In my room
You can go, you can stay
I can't sleep I can't speak to you I can't sleep
Now these years locked on my drawer
I'll open to see just to be sure
I can't sleep I can't speak to you
I can't sleep
And so I'm reaching out for the one
And so I've learned the meaning of the sun
And all this like a message comes to shift my point of view And watching through my own light
As it tints the shade of you
Hold my wine, hold it in Nobody's lost but nobody wins
And I can't sleep
I can't speak to you
I can't sleep
And so I'm reaching out for the one
And so I've learned the meaning of the sun And all this like a message comes to shift my point of view And watching through my own light
As it tints the shade of you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
I can't sleep, I can't speak to you
Another contusion my funeral jag
Here's my resignation I'll serve it in drag
You've got front row seats to the penitence ball
When I grow up I want to be nothing at all
I don't know how else to put this
It's taken me so long to do this
I'm falling asleep and I can't see straight
My muscles feel like a melee
My body's curled in a U-shape
I put on my best but I'm still afraid
Propped up by lies and promises
Saving my place as life forgets
Maybe its time I saw the world
I'm only here for a while
But patience is not my style
And I'm so tired that I gotta go
What am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
Did you really think I wouldn't see this through
Tell me I should stick around for you
Tell me I could have it all
I'm still too tired to care and I gotta go
I get to go home in one week
But I leaving home in three weeks
They throw me a bone just to pick me dry
I'm following suit and directions
I crawl up inside for protection
I'm told what to do and I don't know why
I'm over existing in limbo
I'm over the myths and placebos
I don't really mind if I just fade away
I'm ready to live with my family
I'm ready to die in obscurity
'Cause I'm so tired that I gotta go
Where am I supposed to hide now?
What am I suppose to do?
You still don't think I'm going see this through
Tell me I'm a part of history
Tell me I can have it all
I'm still to tired to care and I gotta go
Oh yeah
Oh yeah yeah yeah yeah.
Still too tired to care and I gotta go
Still too tired to care and I gotta go
Still too tired to care and I gotta go
Yeah, yeah
Still to tired to care and I gotta go
Go home
Still to tired to care and I gotta go
Yeah yeah
Still to tired to care and I gotta go
The world is just illusion always trying to change me.
You will find wonder wherever you can, and spread joy whenever you are able.
I felt emotions of gentleness and pleasure, that had long appeared dead, divide within me. - Frankenstein.
Take a look at my body
Look at my hands There's so much here that I don't understand
Your face say these promises
Whispered like prayers I don't need them Because I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable Well content loves the silence It thrives in the dark
With fine winding tendrils
That strangle the heart
They say that promises sweeten the blow But I don't need them, no
I don't need them I've been treated so wrong
I've been treated so long
As if I'm becoming untouchable I'm the slow dying flower
In the frost killing hour
Sweet turning sour and untouchable Oh, I need the darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
Oh, I need this
I need a lullaby
A kiss good night
Angel sweet love of my life
Oh, I need this I'm the slow dying flower
In the frost killing hour
Sweet turning sour and untouchable
Do you remember the way that you touched me before
All the trembling sweetness I loved and adored
Your face saying promised whispered like prayers I don't need them
Oh, I need the darkness
The sweetness
The sadness
The weakness
Oh, I need this I need a lullaby
A kiss good night
Angel sweet love of my life
Oh, I need this
Well is it dark enough Can you see me Do you want me Can you reach me Oh, I'm leaving You better shut your mouth
And hold your breath
And kiss me now
And catch your death
Oh, I mean this
Oh, I mean this
The only time you will find real light is when you're searching in the dark..
❤
