Sorry I have to hide all this, keeping strong for the world but I just can't...
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I'm a nurse, I'm supposed to look after people. How can I do that if I can't even look after myself?
I'm weak and hurt myself and now it's looking infected. I thought going back to work and having something to do would help but it makes no difference. I come home and still feel the same.
I was invited out with a friend today and said I would go then today just ignore her all day because I couldn't face it.
How is everyone else doing?
PS. Mark you can get pretty good CV templates online. My dad altered mine (he's a business manager and reckons this makes him an expert ) if you like you can use it as a template.
I'm sorry you are so Low , Ashley :( As a nurse I know you know this but do your best to keep your wound sterile and dressed. *Hugs*
I have PM'd you. Hope you are doing okay today :)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Thanks for the hugs big brother, you have no idea how much I need them right now. *hugs*
Sorry you aren't feeling so good Ashley but I hope that things are improving. Looking after our selves is sometimes the most difficult thing to do sadly. *safe hugs if okay*
I'm still struggling from hearing that I have cauda equina syndrome which could result in permanent paralysis of the legs with no appointment with a neurosurgeon until August. Being in the wheelchair is hard enough because I really just want to get up and walk but knowing this.... Sorry. I'm just going to go and cry in a corner.
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
*hugs Kahlia* at least they've shown it's not related to your mental health. Which should help if you go to hospital again. Sorry to hear that it might turn out so bad tho. And that the neurology appointment is so far away.
Ashley, I get where your coming from. *hugs*
Mark, thanks for being around.*hugs for you too*
It all hit the fan. I hurt myself. I ended up feeling worse.
It's all coming apart now.
...I try to outsmart him, but somehow he knows,
Wherever I am, that f***ing dog goes... - Dog, Andy Bull
No matter how bad things get, the true test is how we choose to respond to the pain we suffer, or inflict. - Amenadiel, Lucifer
Why is the path unclear,
When we know hope is near
Understand we'll go hand in hand, but we'll walk alone in fear
~~Margo is my penguin 🐧!!! ~~
1. Long Distance Reletionship that is beyond complicated, So In Love though , Not really got a handle on my feelings.
2. Only IRL Friend moving away has really triggered my BPD Fear of Abandoment.
3.Meds change has messed up my Sleep.
4. Anxiety is going turbo charged.
5. Triggered beyond belief and am at my folks for 9 more days , they think I've recovered and Mum made up the bed in crisp White Sheets.
I'm just doing my best to keep a lid on my head until I get home , very very very hard indeed.
How are you ?
Last edited by Doikers : 12-06-2016 at 08:52 AM.
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
) if you like you can use it as a template.
