Graphic - This Is Rediculously Hard

jacey · 20-09-2011, 12:47 AM

I miss my razorblades the blood the hiding the paper toweling, i gave the blades to my mom told her to lock up the meds, i dream almost every night of drowning myself, usually my idols or friends that left me are there, ughhhh theres glass in the kitchen and out in the yard i miss glass its what i started with, but everytime i stop it usually comes back worse, why stop?

PassedExpectations · 20-09-2011, 02:24 AM

i think that it was really brave of you to give your blades to your mom and have her move the drugs... perhaps you could bring up getting some professional support? which i think is definately worth a shot even if you aren't totally sold on the idea.

jacey · 24-09-2011, 06:21 PM

ive tried, its all about getting the right dose of medicine, which is really hard to do

silent_scars11 · 24-09-2011, 10:17 PM

Wow, I'm really proud of you!! What you did is so very hard, and you took a great big step toward recovery there. You should be proud of yourself.

Perhaps you need professional support at a higher frequency than you're getting now? I know that personally, there was a while back when once-a-week therapy wasn't enough for me. Especially now, when you're struggling so much, it definitely wouldn't hurt to have therapy more frequently.

I know, getting on the right dose of the right meds can seem to take forever. At least if you're receiving therapy as well, you can work through some of your emotions while you wait for the meds to kick in.

Please hang in there, you've taken a big step and I know you can get through this! <3