Isnt it funny? *mentions death*
how there are some things you are 'allowed' to be upset about?
My uncle died this week, I could break down in tears in front of anyone and they'd all care and all be kind.
Yet things that hurt far more and I find much much harder to cope with people would get angry/scared/confused/ not understand etc if I broke down and cried about them.
To the outside world I have shown no emotion about him dying, because people have always wanted me to keep my emotions quiet. Yet this is the one time it would be 'allowed' for me to show them.
It annoys me that I get no credit for 'coping well' with this but get crap from people for not coping with other stuff.
I wish all the support people offer now was there when I really needed it.
Why can others decide when we are 'allowed' to be in pain?
Just a thought.
Beth
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