Well... hi. How did I end up back here?
Wow, RYL, it has been a few years since we last spoke. New me, new username, still with the same old bad habits. Iím definitely too old for this - god, I even remember when we were ďRuinYourLife.Ē So, here I am back again. A lot has changed, Iíve done some great stuff, Iíve bagged some diagnoses and Iíve made some good decisions and some terrible ones. Hell, I even got my doctorate! Iím great at what I do, I get told how talented I am, the whole nine yards.
Itís still. Just. Not. Enough.
Itís the same old story, I get Ďbetterí for a while, then the walls cave in again. Iím struggling. I just canít hold it together and I canít stick to healthy coping strategies. My finger is just never far away from the self-destruct button, but I do so well at hiding it all. I hold down a good job, and the sense of responsibility means I wonít just let myself totally fall apart. Good in some ways, bad in others.
Anyway, I just wanted to drop in. Iím not sure what Iím looking for, but for some reason this seemed the place to go even after all of these years.