Feeling helpless and stupid
Hello. I'm sorry for being a bother.
Things really haven't been good lately. I am in training at a new job and I am being very stupid. I struggle, more than other trainees. I would just leave and not waste their time, but I really need money. Like, "no more food, meds or bus money" kind of a situation, I don't know how to pay my rent. I self-harmed at work today, i'm not sure if anyone noticed, but now my fingers don't move properly. I just want it to end so badly. My office is on the tenth floor, and well, it keeps giving me thoughts.
I don't even know what kind of help I expect here, I'm sorry. But I need something, anything, and I have nowhere to turn. I'm sorry for rambling.