ED vs SI

[muzzii]

So recently I've been doing a lot better ED wise, I'm eating pretty regular meals and barely purging anything. However my SI has been getting a lot worse.. My ED actually started the first time I tried to quit SI..
I don't know.. It just seems like I can't cope without at least one kind of self destructive behavior. I hate it.

Flitting between is dangerous, because it can result in you doing both.
Well done on the progress though, keep it up? :)
*hug*

[Gone.]

I do understand how you feel because I replicate this pretty exactly, or have done, in the past. It might be worth considering why you feel you need these behaviours to reply upon and explore that, perhaps with the help of someone objective, to comment on the situation. Take care.

[[LittleMonster]]

I don't have much to say on this as I don't know how to advise.
At least well done on the ED front, try and keep fighting darling <3

xx

This sounds so familiar!

well done on your progress with ED, but obviously you still have stuff to deal with/ look at/ whatever as you're now expressing yourself through SI.

I find this is one of the hardest things: not to substitute one behaviour for another :(

i wish i knew what might help. it's hard work to tackle so many things at once.
x

[-Tough-Cookie-]

its actually quite 'normal' for this to happen...but it usualy means the person isnt dealing with the underlying issue and hense still needs a behaviour of some sort....does that sound true of you?

[nowhereman]

It happens me too, its always one or the other. I don't know how to help but you're not alone and neither is good so I hope you can get help with them.

[muzzii]

Thanks so much for all he replies. :')
I don't know what to do though.. there must me some underlying issue.. maybe.. or maybe I'm just messed up..
I kinda told my boyfriend what's been going on this week last night.. However we were both very drunk at the time (especially me..) so i don't know if he remembers.. I kinda hope he doesn't..

[nowhereman]

Well done for telling him (even if you were drunk at the time) you still opened up to someone and that takes guts. How are you doing now? have you spoken to him since?

[muzzii]

Thanks.. As I remember I just kinda hinted at him so he'd guess then did a lot of apologizing.. I'm spoken to him about the night since, but not so much about telling him.. I asked him is he remembers everything that happened though and he said yes..
I've not been doing too well tbh, it's been okay on the ED front, but I just feel an bit like I 'm doing all a bit mechanically, and just eating 'because I have to' and not enjoying it.. The SI is just bad, although not as bad as it was before the ED.. I'm kinda scared of getting to that point again.. I already hate it.

[star_shine]

im not really sure what else to add to whats been said but just i know what you mean - this is similar to what my position is i flipped between a lot and still would. hope your doing better