Today, I won my first battle against anorexia! Even though I am not yet ready to face the war, I feel like I've taken a baby step.
Firstly, I had breakfast. Yes it was small, but...I never eat breakfast! The main thing was, because I only had a little bit, I didn't feel too guilty.
Then, after my mum got really worked up about my eating habits, I decided to put her first and actually eat something completely unessential. When she was out, I asked her to buy 5 cream cakes
...One for every member of my family, and my boyfriend. Together we sat down, with a cup of tea, and although it took me a lot longer than everyone else, and the fact my heart was racing, I ate every last bit! She was so happy, that finally 3 hours later I've relaxed about it. I'm only having a small tea tonight, and even what I've eaten today is no where near a healthy amount, but I feel like my phobia of eating was put to the test today. Hopefully, soon, my weight loss might slow down