For years, Ive know that my mental health hasnt been good. After much research, I noticed that I present the "symptoms" of certain conditions. I self diagnosed myself with CPTSD (Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). CPTSD symptoms include Depression and Anxiety.
Although I wasn't 100% sure because it was me who was telling myself, that diagnosis did sit right with me. The more I researched it the more I found that reflected me - It was like they were explaining my story.
Recently I went to the doctors to seek support to reduce my anxiety as its been awoken now that Im dealing with the past. It took a lot to get myself to go. The doctor agreed with my self diagnosis of CPTSD. Though he didn't really do much more than that - he just typed up the notes and handed me a prescription. I dont know exactly what I was expecting to happen, but I did think there would be more of an assessment despite me giving a lot of information (Not the actual trauma). He just confirmed with me that I was seeing a counsellor. Upon returning twice more with a different doctor, I had a similar story happen.
Since I have spoken with someone about it who understands CPTSD. Although in their profession they arent allowed to diagnose, they did agree with me and stated that they had been thinking it for a while.
As much as I don't like labels, I feel since accepting this one I have felt more comfortable. I dont feel quite so crazy and overwhelmed. I think by knowing what Im fighting it has helped. But I feel a fraud by saying I have it because of the lack of feedback/action of the doctors.