I've been experiencing a lot of anger towards my mother recently whenever she asks me to help with chores. She asks nicely and she doesn't ask for much help but I still get irrationally irritated with her.
I don't understand where this feeling is coming from exactly. Okay, that's not true entirely, I have some ideas where it's coming from... But those feelings shouldn't really affect me in these situations, right? It's just chores, and most of the day I end up sleeping any how. And yet, I just don't have the motivation to do any of it and become distress when the subject is even approached.
I don't feel like I'm myself when these feelings are brought on. Even as I type this I feel unusual. I can't think straight, which is normal for me on a daily basis as I have A.D.D. and it messes me up usually but this is something completely different and I don't feel right. I'm not thinking right, I'm having thoughts that conflict with everything I know isn't right.
I'd go to a therapist but I get anxiety attacks just thinking about it and I tell myself I don't need it or I don't care, which I'm not sure if that's true or not.
Ugh, it's just so confusing.