Contains sexual abuse - Why now?

HildaOgden · 26-08-2016, 10:46 PM

This past week I've been having flashbacks/remembering what happened to me when I was about 10/11 years old.

I've really struggled with what happened to me in the past but I've had a long period where I've not really thought about it or had any memories/flashbacks.

I underwent 2 years of DBT and never discussed what happened to me in individual sessions despite me telling the clinical lead at the initial assessment.

I've just finished DBT.

I feel like I need to have some sort of SA counselling but I don't know what to do about it or where to go.

I saw my GP today and mentioned was having some flashbacks but he didn't really comment and I was quite distressed

I don't know why the SA has reared it's ugly head again

I'm 42 years old, single, never married, no kids. The thought of having sex or intimacy with someone knocks me sick. I had sex in 1999 with a long distance relationship for aobut 6 months. I had sex twice about 7 years ago. That ended badly.

I'm so f*cked up by the SA
I just want a chance of a 'normal' life, whatever one of those is

bobbiwibble · 27-08-2016, 02:04 AM

Hi, sorry you're going through it!
I know what it feels like to put up with feelings like that, here if you need to talk xx

Unbreakable. · 27-08-2016, 02:12 AM

Could you mention to your GP that you would like to be referred for to SA counseling?
You might have caught them off guard so to speak if you don't usually mention it and they might have felt unsure how to react and whether to ask for more details.

From what I've seen on and off RYL SA stuff can get more intense if your general stress levels are rather high and when your mood is low. They can trigger things even when the stress isn't directly related to it.

Uglyducklin · 27-08-2016, 10:47 AM

Hugs I'm low on words but I'm sorry things are so difficult.

HildaOgden · 27-08-2016, 09:29 PM

I think you're right.. as things aren't great at the moment I think that's why the SA stuff has come up again

My GP knows that I was SA'd but he doesn't know details

I think I will try and ask for some counselling, just got to pluck the courage up to ask