Contains abuse - Im done ....

[Darkwings44]

I’m going to try that but i dont know if that would work for me.........

Today I asked my friend if he could go to a sports store and buy me a gun and he said that he doesn’t deal with guns
I really want to shoot me.......

[Shirayuki]

we need you around, this place wouldn't seem the same without you!
please don't.

it might work, i guess we'll never know until we try ^^

[tamobhuuta]

It's horrible feeling that way but practically speaking suicide attempts don't always work and you can end up with terrible injuries, permanently. Plus you deserve to feel better than this. Don't give up on yourself. Be kind to yourself every day.

[Darkwings44]

but theres still a chance though it might work all i have to do is find a way to kill me something that works....... it has to.... i cant stand any more of this shit!!!!
its hard to be kind to myself.... when everyone including me hates me so munch....

[Shirayuki]

we need you around, please don't.

I don't hate you, in fact I love when your on and when your around ^^"

[Darkwings44]

no one needs me even my DNA family doesnt need me!!! my counsons all hate me for me being in a gang.... but no one even trys or wants to understand the qusetion of WHY in the first place they all hate and judge me!!!!!!!!!

[Shirayuki]

well, I need you and I'm pretty sure sorry scratch that I'm positive many others need you!

[Darkwings44]

Thank you for that <3

I think I have a plan that would actually work!!!!! But I have to wait until my friend gives me his valentine gift so I don’t let him down by dying before he gets a chance to give it to me......

[Shirayuki]

please don't

[nonperson]

I'm sorry you feel this way but honestly you'll let him down by dying whether he gives you the gift or not (and just to clarify that's not meant to sound like encouragement). Maybe you can speak to him, put off your plan and hang on longer?

[Darkwings44]

i dont think i can hang on any longer...... but ive tried my plan today and the person that i needed to make angry and full of hate didnt kill me so i failed my plan i thought that he had the hate, anger, power and the will to kill me but i guess he didnt so im still living....... sadly.......

[Shirayuki]

something i thought you should listen to, not sure if you already know it though...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tIZitK6_IMQ

[Darkwings44]

i heard it.... i like it.. thank you<3

i went home this Valentine day weekend and asked google home "whats the process of completing a will?" and it gave me the steps to do it (i didnt do it when my mom was around) and i asked my mom what cemetery did my grandparents go to and she couldnt remember the name of it but she did remember the name of the street it was on so.... yeah i have been planing my funeral and i asked my friend if he could come to itand he said yes and i told him that hopefully my furneal would be way better then my life which i really hope it is and not high jacked by my stupid selfish cousins.........

[Shirayuki]

mhm, much love

sweetie, please don't we need you, and your friend needs you!

(your cousins are very stupid people in my opinion because they can't see how amazing you already are, just saying so don't attack me ^^")

is it ok if i PM you something?

also, much love, hugs and as Buttons. likes to say, "hugs, love n all that fluff"
<3

[Darkwings44]

Thanks for that <3
I don’t know if I can
I totally agree with you about my cousins :)
Ok you can do that
Thank you

I wrote my will yesterday night and I don’t have much stuff but I hope that my friends will like it......... now all I need is a way to die........

[Shirayuki]

please love, wait for a bit

please?

^^

thanks, it might take a bit though because its rather long ^^"

*hugs if ok*

[Shirayuki]

I have a couple more songs that I'm sending-

not sure if you've heard them before though

basically- from me to you-

listen to the words please, its a message from me to you ^^"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Buq_65y3o68

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_wfoY56JGc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sesKiKYQn84



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CdlpbPgDDCI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r7jaXI6oXpQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OkNhGXlOCQ

[Darkwings44]

Quote:

Originally Posted by RoseThorne

please love, wait for a bit

please?

^^

thanks, it might take a bit though because its rather long ^^"

*hugs if ok*

Ok I’ll wait......
I read it and replied back to you
It’s always ok to hug!! <3
*hugs you too*

[Darkwings44]

I cant listen to them right now im on someone else’s phone so I have to wait until I go to the library on Thursday... im sorry.......

[Darkwings44]

Tomorrow morning my mom hopefully will take me out for lunch but I’m not sure
It depends on how she feels......