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i hate me!! i really hate me!!!! i shoud be less! LESS!!!!!! Anything else is worthless!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im worthless!!!!!! not at the weight i am now....... I cant stand it!!! today the staff made me eat…..
Last edited by Pi.R^2 : 11-10-2020 at 10:16 AM.
Reason: removed food list.
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
This seems a fairly new thing, or at least something new than what I’ve seen you mention before. Is that accurate? Please tell me if not. Has something happened today to trigger you? How was your day? What did you do?
Also, and a super easy mistake to make (think I’ve done it before too), specific food info is against the rules hun. You won’t get in trouble so don’t worry- just a heads up for future.
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i just took a bath and i hate seeing my body this way!! i miss being skinny so much!!! i was anorexic in the past a few years ago before i was on RYL (i had to recover it wasn't my choice to... my other therapist in the past told me to either eat or we (the therapist and my family) will force me to eat by inserting a tube in my tummy) but no one in the group home knows about it because it was before i came in the group home) but i hate my body so much right now!!!!
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Reason: please see your PMs
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
before i weighed XX.XX and that was my lowest... i feel like thats not even enough..... that i could go lower i want to try that..... but i dont know because of the staff at the group home......
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
I've been e-mailing my friend about my ED and she said that i should eat... and long story short she said that calories are not the enemy but the brain is.... and that eating healthy and exercising often will get me to the goul weight but i dont know if shes right....isnt calories fat and wont fat make me gain weight instead of lose it?
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Reason: misspelled a word....
just another floating iceberg in this ocean we call life...….
Am I a failure from birth
Is misery what I deserve
Am I just so void of love
That I'm never good, never good enough
~citizen soldier-never good enough
Have you spoken to anyone about that struggling with the ED?
Have you ever confused a dream with life? Or stolen something when you have the cash? Have you ever been blue? Or thought your train moving while sitting still? Maybe I was just crazy. Maybe it was the 60's. Or maybe I was just a girl... interrupted.
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. I tried groups, didn't work out just made my depression a lot worse.
Curveball
