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Old 10-12-2017, 12:40 AM   #1
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Scared of Christmas and New year

I have had some awful Christmases. One year I was hypomanic on Christmas Day and one year I had really bad voices. I took prn and that combined with alcohol made me extremely sleepy. I spent most of that day asleep. I have also been depressed tons and I even cut on Christmas Day.


In January things have been bad. My sleeping patterns have been all over the place and I always feel low. In fact most of my antidepressant prescriptions have been in January. Half of my current psych admissions have been in January. I tend to undereat in January though not deliberately I just don't feel hungry.

Idk what I want from this I just am dreading Christmas and January. I need love and support. I am dreading being IP again in January as I want to be 5 years IP free and next year it will be 4.



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Old 10-12-2017, 12:46 AM   #2
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Sending big hugs your way. *hugs*

I can relate to this. The festive period is so difficult and there is so much pressure. Is there anything that you think may help? You’ve been 4 years IP free, so maybe think about what has helped with that. What is different from when you have been IP.

I think during January it’s important you keep talking to people and reaching out for support. We are here for you.





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Old 10-12-2017, 12:54 AM   #3
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Christmas and New Year are often difficult times for lots of people. Society seems to put a lot of pressure on this time of year being a time of celebration and new beginnings, etc... I think that doesn't help and certainly causes me to feel worse.

You seem really determined to free of IP and 4 years is amazing. Maybe try to focus on the positive side of that rather than the negative - think about what you have achieved and want to achieve rather than what might happen.

You already know it's a hard time of year for yourself so are there things you could do in preparation to help yourself through it? For example, can you work on getting a good sleeping pattern before it becomes all over the place? Maybe you should avoid alcohol over Christmas in case you need to medicate? Get all your coping strategies in place so you're ready to deal with whatever happens.

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Old 10-12-2017, 01:02 AM   #4
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Thanks Lorraine. The last time I was IP I was taking meds but it was at a lower dose than I am now. In fact the reason why I ended up IP was because of low mood rather than psychosis. I am hoping that the higher dose is enough to keep me from ending up IP.

I also miss my kitties as they are in the cattery over Christmas because I usually spend the holidays with my family and I can't take them with me.

I also am dreading being forced to be social. Last year I even r /v about having to spend time with my cousins children as I find children very stressful. Thankfully due to various reasons I am not going to be put in that situation this year. But there are times I wish I was on my own so that I can do what I like when I like.



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Old 10-12-2017, 01:11 AM   #5
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Thanks nonperson. I am on less prn now than when I had a really bad time so hopefully I will be ok. But I am scared that I will get stressed and that it will trigger off the voices. I have bouts of believing that food and drink have been tampered with and that causes me not to eat. Or if I eat everything tastes vinegary even chocolate. I mean why on earth would they put vinegar in chocolate?

I am scared that everything will go wrong. My nurse is coming to see me on the 3rd of January so if I end up needing support I do have it.



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Old 10-12-2017, 08:53 PM   #6
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Is there a way to find a balance between getting the love and support that you say you need and getting enough time to yourself? I know how pressured it can be to be forced into socialising with family. It's ok for you to take breaks to recover and look after yourself. Think about what you need to make things as minimally stressful as they can be, I can understand that you may be on edge thinking about what might happen which in turn can increase the stress you feel and you worry it will trigger you to become unwell, so having a plan to reduce stress and thinking about it in advance may be helpful. Having a goal to reach 4 years IP free is something else you can focus on. I believe in you.





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