You can't make someone be your friend/boyfriend if they don't want to, no matter how hard you try.
Why don't you put yourself first, leave the boy, and concentrate on getting better for you, and for all the people who care about you.
i need him to get better
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
you don't need him to get better. you need YOU to get better. if you focus on him you will never get better. you need to save yourself, not wait for someone else to save you. you play an active role in recovery, not a passive one.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
you don't need him to get better. you need YOU to get better.
nooooooooooooooo i need him
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
No one needs someone else. You might really want someone to play a certain role in your life, but as my grandpa once said "It's good to want things. It builds character."
some stability, someone who atually cares , wont take the piss out of me, ect
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
No one needs someone else. You might really want someone to play a certain role in your life, but as my grandpa once said "It's good to want things. It builds character."
i thort the qoute was 'its good to want things, it means your human'
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
now, why does it have to be him that gives that to you? are those things that really can be given even? stability... that is something that you mostly have to give yourself. someone who cares... it is much easier to get that if you care about yourself first. people to respect you... again, you've got to respect yourself first. all of these changes to get better need to start with you. not with someone else. you need to take responsibility for yourself. and when you do that, a positive side effect is that you get to receive the credit when you get better and do something healthy
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
now, why does it have to be him that gives that to you? are those things that really can be given even? stability... that is something that you mostly have to give yourself. someone who cares... it is much easier to get that if you care about yourself first. people to respect you... again, you've got to respect yourself first. all of these changes to get better need to start with you. not with someone else. you need to take responsibility for yourself. and when you do that, a positive side effect is that you get to receive the credit when you get better and do something healthy
that aint easy
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
no it isn't easy. i didn't say that it was easy. it is hard. but from everyone i've met on here, and everyone in real life who really take this to heart, they've all ended up being stronger than they thought they were at the beginning. the way out isn't easy. but it is difficult that moves you towards a goal, towards a huge lessening of the pain. you don't make the effort, you're going to suffer in the same way you are now and not ever get out of it for any significant length of time. even if someone did pull you out, you can't rely on them forever. everyone faces changes and difficulties and ends of relationships in their life. everyone does. what is going to get you through those is to build a personal set of skills, an "emotional tool kit" of sorts so that you can stay ok no matter what is happening
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Location: third star from the right and straight on until morning
I am currently:
to be honest. if i liked a girl and they cut themselves "becuase of me" i would stay the hell away from them.
this might not come across as suportive as you like but you should never blame anyone for your self harming. yes others can put you in the mood where you want to self harm but YOU made that choice.
that boy is probably being senisble and atm its coming across that you are using it to attention seek.
im sorry to hear about your dad throwing you out but he probably paniced and didnt know how else to react.
( mods feel free to delete my post if you like just annoyed atm)
Have you ever told anyone about your self harm Ashleigh?
people at school know and they call me pathetic ect
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I'm sorry if this is a silly question, but did you start to hurt yourself because of this boy? Are you hurting yourself because of this boy?
yepp
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I've been making a mess of everything in my life
It all made sense in my head, now it just don't seem right
I've been pushing away all the ones that mean the most to me
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
I mean, have you ever told an adult, like a teacher or doctor or mum and dad?
Why do you think things are a mess? Often when we think things are messed up, they're able to be fixed more easily than we'd think.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
yes others can put you in the mood where you want to self harm but YOU made that choice.
this.
I actually found it very helpful when I was recovering from self-harm to remember that no matter what pushed me to the brink, I and I alone made that decision to translate my feelings into cuts. I personally could not have recovered without acknowledging that, as the painful reality that it is self harm, also made me realise I had within me the power to stop.
Do you still see your GP/psychiatrist who diagnosed your eating disorders? Perhaps they could help you with your self-harming or at least refer you to someone who can?
There was a time when I believed I could do anything, Now I'm standing alone second guessing, But that's exactly what the enemy wants me to do
And I keep having this dream that I finally made it there, But it's not what I expected I'm waking up scared, I hear the thunder, but I do see the light, anymore
I still think the world would be better off without me Some people, when they hit rock bottom, they dont have that person in their lives to pick them back up The mirror can lie, it doesnt show you whats on the inside. I dont think im fixed, people think that your like a car in a body shop, you go in, they fix you and your out, you work like your brand new, it doesnt work like that at all Sometimes i dont understand my self. Im not strong enough and im tired of pretending i am.
Location: third star from the right and straight on until morning
I am currently:
you arent exactly alone.
how many threads have you thrown up in the last few days?
and how many people have responded to you?
what you need to do is stop being so damn dramatic about everything and deal with the reality of things.
the reality is that your self harming is in your hands and your hands alone.
you have asked for distraction methods etc and havent actually seemed to ecknowlege that youve been given any.
this kinda ssounds harsh but life isnt gonna get better on its on. This boy isnt going to save you and he isnt worth your tears or your blood or your pain.
YOU need to start making things better for yourself. YOU need to go to the doctors. YOU need to go see if you can get family counciling to help your realtionship with your father.
and most of all YOU need to see that there are people here who are taking the time to try and help you.
