Sitting here with just my thoughts

Mrs Sam · 18-09-2018, 10:02 AM

The only reason I can come up with for not killing myself today is that I'll miss the meeting later.

Solitaire is saving my life.

Straight 3 · 18-09-2018, 10:40 PM

Sometimes, for us, its day-by-day, and appreciating the small things (anything) to live for.

Keep posting here if it helps and we're listening.

Take care!

tiptoes · 19-09-2018, 09:33 AM

Some times that is the game we have to play, keeping occupied to pass the minutes and hours.

How are things today?

Mrs Sam · 25-09-2018, 09:08 PM

Things aren't very good. I tried lots of different avenues of support today none of which answered me. I self harmed and I have no idea how to look after it. I only just looked at the damage and even I'm a bit shocked at it. I don't know what to do. I just keep looking at it.

Pi.R^2 · 30-09-2018, 10:22 PM

I'm so sorry to hear that things have gotten so bad. Is there anyone who can advocate for you to help with seeking support?

Are there any particular things in your life/experiences you are having that are contributing to feeling like this?

Mrs Sam · 03-11-2018, 06:28 AM

I am seeking support and hopefully starting to get somewhere with that.

Everything is just getting on top of me. Insomnia meaning each night rolling into day in never ending cycle of exhaustion anxiety, anger, ptsd whilst trying to balance parenting, being a carer, governing, staying alive, housework, jobs job's jobs. Trying to keep the cupboards full with food with little money and a fear of leaving the house except for a few safe places.

Pi.R^2 · 10-11-2018, 03:27 PM

I'm pleased to hear you're starting to get somewhere with seeking support. How is that going?

Sounds like you're juggling an awful lot, do you have any support from family/friends?