I have cooked lunch again today, that makes it two days in a row. It may not sound like much, but I usually just binge on crap and end up engaging in ALL of the unhealthy behaviours, but not for the last couple of days, I've actually taken the time to cook something proper and filling and healthy-ish instead.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Yesterday, with the help of two awesome friends *coughBelleandAilsacough* I managed to go to the gym and get over ALL the anxiety. I also managed to go my first day in about 2 months of not having an alcoholic drink.
Woot woot! Well done Ami! See, you CAN do it! :D
When I have come off this coffee high, I will congratulate everyone else!
I got asked last night [20:17 to be exact] if I would compile a playlist and lead a Zumba session this morning at 9:30am to cover the usual person that does it as she is ill. I managed it and kept it really up tempo and now have a booking for somewhere fairly local and everyone said that I looked really good! :D
I then whizzed off to teach a children's Zumba and that went well, too!
Now I am going out for lunch and I'm determined to allow myself to order a legit meal and not feel bad about it.
I'm also keeping up with food diaries whereas a few weeks ago I refused to do them or use them positively.
Belle, you are awesome! Love you and proud of you and I so know you can totally order a legit meal and feel alright about it. I have ALL the belief in you! Also woo for keeping up with the food diary!!! <3
Thank you everyone! I just wanted to let you know, your encouragement keeps me going when I feel like giving up.
Justiene, well done on the healthy lunch front - keep at it lovely!
Marie, well done for having MORE healthy food! You're doing great :)
Hazel, good on you for being honest with your GP - I hope they were helpful!
Ami, well done darling! You're doing so well with everything, I'm ALL the proud <3
Belle, well done with all the Zumba teaching and such, and for doing food diaries properly - they are irritating little things, but they are actually helpful! I hope lunch went well, you should feel ALL the proud for ordering a legit meal :)
Last edited by Ailsa : 23-07-2012 at 05:15 PM.
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"And sometimes when our fights begin,
I think I'll let the Dragons win...
And then I think perhaps I won't,
Because they're Dragons, and I don't."
Thank you! It did go well! :D I ate far too much and I feel really guilty but I'm still letting myself go out with my friends tonight and to not let it bother me. I've got to face a major fear tonight; alcohol and 'night out-ish' socialising and I'm really worried but I feel confident I can do it! Is that heroic? I don't know, it kind of feels a bit heroic that I'm going to allow myself to go out and be a normal person on a Saturday night.
Ailsa, I hope you had a lovely day with Ami yesterday and that people's achievements are encouraging you. It sounds as though you're doing fantastically and are just generally an awesome person! :D
Well done lovely. I hope you continue to have a wonderful time!
~ I was meeting a friend today and despite my anxiety and feeling low I went. Whilst I was waiting for her there was a guy kicking off on the street and being really aggressive and verbally abusive towards me. It heightened the anxiety and caused flashbacks, especially when the police came but I didn't let him ruin my day. I waited for my friend and stayed out.