Things are still not good
We are all going to be moving today or tomorrow
I'm not going to the ward with the psych that made me have ECT which is good though.
But I'm also not eating, drinking or taking meds.
If dehydration doesn't kill me then maybe a seizure will
I think I had a seizure last night
I woke up to staff shining a light on me and I was on the floor
I don't know how long I had been down there
They don't do checks very often. Not as often as they're supposed to anyway. Especially not during the night.
I just feel awful in general and I want to hibernate
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
Well done for having a shower yesterday, keep trying to do the little things. I hope the move goes well and you can find help to move through this awful time. *more hugs*
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Ironically it's probably okay to stay in your room right now! I'm glad you were able to get moved (hopefully) without too much stress. I hope they are able to help figure something out to get you home soon.
Please do not give me virtual hugs unless you are only using the hug function on threads. Thanks.
You can't always keep it separate.
This is happening, this is part of you.
What do you think they might say about going home? Have any of your difficult feelings changed that people have been worried about? Do you think you would be ok at home?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I doubt they'll let me go home
The fact that I have to die hasn't changed
I don't know if it's worth lying about again because they'll be wise to that now
Though it is a new doctor so maybe not
I only got a couple of hours sleep last night so I feel awful but I can't sleep
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!
I don't think it's a fact that you have to die but I can understand that you feel strongly that it is. I hope that you can come to recognise that you don't need to die for anyone. Please tell the truth so that the truth can be worked with, if you lie then you won't be getting what is right for you if that makes sense.
Are you at least resting today?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I wish I didn't have to
I've told the truth to enough people now that it would be obvious if I was lying to the doctor
Not really much else to do in here but rest tbh
I just wish I could sleep
I haven't slept for more than a few hours a night since Thursday
I don't really feel tired, just headachey and sick
I'm fine! Totally fine. I don't know why it's coming out all loud and squeaky, 'cause really, I'm fine!