Morning Threadlings , So Positive despite feeling unmotivated I'm up and shaved , Didn't bath but they've now cut the water for maintinence for the next 6 hours soooo......., I was expecting this and have a bucket, Kettle and several plastic bottles full of water .
How are you all?
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*Hugs Kat*I'm sorry you're not so good hun, me either tbh.
I want to read my book as it's getting hard to avoid spoilers but I know it'll not stick in this mental state.
Plus I can't wash my hands with no running water , ew.
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm struggling, too, but I'm just trying to keep distracted!
Oh, speaking of, here's the list, may help you guys if you forgot about it or want to distract yourself and add to it/try them out. :)
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The BPD thread distraction list
1. Watch TV/DVDs/programmes/etc - I love doing this, it helps me to distract myself from everything and just focus on what I'm watching :) I tend to get obsessed ;p
2. Play music really loud & sing/scream - this is really good, too, 'cause screaming the lyrics and just listening and focusing on a song helps tons!
3. Have a cup of tea - can be very soothing, and it's tasty, and warm :)
4. Read a book - it can be very helpful to read books when you're having a hard time, it can be anything, a magazine even too! Just something to focus on and enjoy / be interested in. :)
5. Text/call someone - I do this muchly!
6. Have a bath with favourite bubble bath/scent etc and candle lit.
7. Go for a walk and admire small things that are beautiful but often go unnoticed.
8. If you have a pet, have a cuddle with them or take care of them.
9. Make a collage using pictures from the internet/magazines etc to display how you are feeling.
10. Make a collage/poster on recovery and your goals/aims/dreams etc.
11. Play a game, such as an App on your phone or on the computer. This can help bring your focus away from whatever is going on.
12. Use some non toxic paints and paint pretty patterns on your body/hands.
13. Sing - apparently it's impossible to think and sing at the same time. (Now you'll try that out!)
14. Do a puzzle.
15. Play an instrument or if you can't play an instrument, consider learning to play an instrument.
16. If you like writing, decide on a random title yourself or use a story generator to start off a fictional story.
18. Find your favourite film and snuggle under a duvet with your favourite film.
19. Reach out to someone and offer them some help.
20. Do a Random Act of Kindness for someone, anyone, that happens to be around. Alternatively, 'pass on' an act of kindness that someone has done to you.
21. Bake fairy cakes and ice them (or bake anything!).
22. Get a huge piece of paper/stick loads of bits together and just throw paint at it, Jackson Pollock style.
23. Take photographs of random things in your flat/house/room, or go for a photo walk.
24. Make a glitter jar/cake in a jar/positive affirmations in a jar.
25. Go on YouTube and watch old people's reactions to Dubstep.
26. Make a 'wellbeing toolbox' - get a shoebox or a bag, decorate it and fill it with things you can turn to when you're feeling overwhelmed, like favourite music, letters you've received from people, little toys/bubbles, sweets etc.
27. Do some gardening, or make an indoor pot of flowers to take care of.
28. Jewellery making...you can buy lovely but cheap beads on ebay
29. Puzzle books..word search, crosswords etc
30. Colouring, you can get cheap books with intricate designs which are totally absorbing
31. Cleaning and tidying...not nice to do, but a sense of achievement when done
32. Paint your nails - you won't be able to use your hands to harm yourself with for a little bit.
33. Be daring - work on your anxieties by facing them and book yourself into a course/activity you've always wanted to try. Take a friend or family member if you can and feel it would help. It will help you expand your interests and even maybe your social circle.
34. Do some exercise... buy a skipping rope or a dance DVD and get going. Exercise releases endorphines, the same chemical that is understood to be released when you self harm.
35. Teach yourself Mindfulness.
36. Organize things. I love things being organized, gives me a sense of control/calm, and distracts me! :)
37. Do a makeover on yourself, or explore different hairstyles, or makeup, clothes, etc!
38. Take pictures outside of flowers you see, or anything really on the ground, make it photogenic :)
39. Make lists. Lists of anything at all!
40. Cuddle your fav teddy bear, feel the texture, focus on it, focus on your breathing, try and relax.
41. Do something silly once a day! Scare someone, make something silly like finger painting, make up your own joke, make a mask, a painting, a portrait of something funny, etc.
Hope everyones okay! Just busy trying to sort out my project and get people to do it, umm i think that was slightly harder than i thought it would be ha ha
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
mark mari means her uni project :) shes having to get people to fill in a survey
how is everyone today?
i am feeling a bit low and unmotivated, been working very hrd lately on painting and tday i just cba with even getting dressed. feeling low about weight and food stuff
*Hugs ferret* Maybe have a day off? As you said, you've been very busy lately and it's going to catch up with you at some point unfortunately. Do take some time out - we all need to now & again. Sorry you are feeling so low about the weight & food. If you want to talk about it, I'm here for you. x
*Hugs Sarah* Thanks for the distractions. I am just feeling very low and it is beginning to get hard to leave the house. How about you?
How are you Mari?
I'm sorry you're feeling so low. Is there anything that helps when you're feeling like this? Anything in the past that has helped you?
Lots of love darling.
I'm just really struggling with my latest self harming "episode" and what happened in the hospital, and what's going on right now with it, and the fact I'm scared shitless of Saturday because I have to go back to the specialist hospital, & I'm scared because the graft doesn't seem to have taken, and it's infected, so I don't know what they're going to do...
Just feeling vulnerable/fragile right now.
Nothing I can't handle!
I have distractions in place, self harming is getting harder to resist, but I'm still resisting!!!
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Good distractions Sarah *Hugs*
:) I'm glad they've helped.
*cuddles*
How are you hon?
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hi guys,
mark mari means her uni project :) shes having to get people to fill in a survey
how is everyone today?
i am feeling a bit low and unmotivated, been working very hrd lately on painting and tday i just cba with even getting dressed. feeling low about weight and food stuff
I think maybe you should have a little break, sounds like you need it, be gentle on yourself, have a break from painting and just chill out maybe?
I'm sorry you're feeling low with your weight/food. Do you want to talk about it?
thank you tigster, just feeling l'll be fat forever, the ed nurse is making me keep diary and eat 6 times a day but im still bingingnd last night was an awful one and i hate myself for eating so much.
my poor mum, shes at work and phoned me, but i was not feeling great and it showed in my voice and the signal was awful next thing i know shes charged round, i think she was worried i'd done something but i havent for a v v v long time
It's good that you are keeping your diary and trying to eat 6 times a day. I think with the binging, it's something that you have (I'm guessing) struggled with for a long time so it is going to take time for you to overcome that behaviour. You will overcome it. Has your ED nurse been asking you to write down about your binges? Like if anything triggered it?
Sorry your Mum was worried but glad that she is looking out for you too! I'm sure she doesn't mind coming over and is happy to see that you haven't done anything!
I'm not too bad today thank you. Just waiting for my cousin to visit so that will be nice for a few hours :)
I'm really struggling at the moment with my head being SO full of thoughts. Its like my mind is going at a million miles an hour with thoughts i dont understand, and i try and understand one thought but before i have its changed. I switch so fast from being angry at everyone, and upset at people for not helping me... to thinking WHY the **** should anyone help ME when i'm such a horrible nasty person? I get confused thinking theres everything wrong with me and it scares the **** out of me, to thinking theres nothing wrong with me and i'm just attention seeking and needy.
Its so so confusing because i dont know whats true, what i think, what i believe or what other people think.
Its exhausting me and i just want a break... the only way i know how to get that is to OD but i dont want to cause more trouble :(
Sorry im going to spam as i have permission now, if people are willing to help me out with my project can you look and reply in this thread or pm me please.