15 years
is way too long :/
the longest ive gone without slef harming is only 3ish months.
recently ive been wondering if im a chronic self hamrer? and if my mh team are simply just helping to make sure that anything serious is treated.
Yes, im medicated and i attend group therapy- so defiantly am under treatment. Its just something the other day that my nurse said to me about my self harming....she said that she doesn't always believe me when i say ive been okay or fine or have self harmed as my past record suggests that its probably not true and that i am indeed lying. Shes right, but i dont know why i still lie to her (been seeing her since 2009) so it cant be a trust thing. Maybe its just habit?
But yeah, what does Chronic mean?
who even defines this?
My scars and cuts arnt even that bad (always superficial) and like only ever cause nerve damage once. so really its just a stupid habit that i cannot kick or let go of. Personally in terms of severity i wouldn't say its bad or chronic, but in longevity i say that its long during but still not chronic.
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