to go or not to go that is the question
This has always been something i have struggled with when it comes to asking for help/accepting help etc. I know there is the option of going down to hospital and speaking with emergeny psych staff and also being acessed etc. the problem is that even though i know this and would tell someone else in my postition to do the exact same thing, i cant make myself go. I have recently (like yesterday) asked my CPN if admission to psych ward would help or be an option only to be told there are no beds availiable. i have had daily phone contact with someone in terms of support but for the rest of the day im on my own with how i feel and stuff.
i have X amount of pills sitting at home, and eve through getting rid of them its likley ill get more so removing the temptation doesnt really help.
Right now i am struggling with my thoughts around this, and not being worthy of help whatever i do, of not even mattering or know how to explain whats going on. i want to take them as i know ill sleep for at least one day if not longer and thats very appealing. Because then i dont have to fight myself every minute. but i also dont see how going to hospital and seeing emergency psych staff as a helpful option.
No idea what i really what form this thread either but am just feeling really stuck and lost and kinda like this fight aint worth it.
Last edited by tiptoes : 18-02-2016 at 09:21 AM.
Reason: amount of pills
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